It's all about Pink!

Hotel...

2011-11-07T18:00:00.002+08:00

And yes, I'm eyeing this particular Hotel. I'll probably book a room around 2nd week of Nov, once everything's confirmed. :)

Can't wait!

http://www.cosmomongkok.com.hk/en/home/

During a Typical Day at the Office

2011-11-06T11:24:00.004+08:00

Just as we were packing up to leave the office for home (or off to somewhere to spend the start of the weekend), here's a funny and touching scene about my personal roadmap -

Mommy Joy (my make-up mentor): Pia, ang payat mo na! Nag-mamaarte ka na. [She said this with a smile on her face.]

Me: Of course! And nagsimula 'to sa pag make-up [last 2009]. Ngayon, nagpapapayat naman ako.

Mommy Joy: Onga e, hindi mo nga ako pinansin 'nun nung sinabi kong next step naman ang magpapayat.

Me: Ah, really? Haha. Cyempre hindi ko na un narinig. Or kinalimutan ko. [With a grin on my face]

So, ano kaya ang next sa roadmap ko? Hmm...

Mommy Joy: E 'di mag dress ka!

Me: Bukod dun? Kasama kasi yun sa roadmap e.

Matet (a colleague listening to our discussion): After 'nun, certified Bakla ka na!

A round of laughter follows. :)

Project Runway

2011-09-25T22:24:00.005+08:00

Losing weight is a victory in itself. I am happy with how I have instilled the discipline to watch what I eat, cut down on how much I ingest, and inject physical activities into my weekdays. It has taken me a lot of will and courage to change my lifestyle, but it's not futile.

My efforts have all been worth it. Of course, the 23 pounds would say it all. Add on the boost coming from people congratulating me for a job well done and not to mention the self-confidence meter slowly gearing up.

But of course, it doesn't stop there. Losing weight meant clothes are suddenly becoming baggy. My blouses suddenly look too big for me. Previously could-barely-be-buttoned-up-pants start to look like they're pajamas.

Next thing I knew, I was rushing to the seamstress every week just to have my clothes mended (of course, in batches). Blouses had to be cut a bit to show off the curves. Pants had to be constricted for them not to look like home clothes.

And that's when Project Runway was born. I knew this was my chance to revitalize my wardrobe. Of course, this is the perfect opportunity to do just that! And though it meant spending a lot on clothes, it is very welcome and encouraged. Because I'm gonna be spending on smaller-sized clothes this time, not the other way around! :)

Who am I to let that opportunity slip by? Of course I won't! And that I made sure just as I went on a shopping spree a couple of weeks ago, buying several clothes at a time, trying on as many as I want. Yes, it hurt my pockets a bit, but I didn't mind at all. Just finding out I was two sizes smaller more than compensated for how much I spent!

And just today, I went ahead and bought three pairs of jeans. These are a bit more expensive than blouses, but the happiness it gave me just by knowing I am three sizes smaller is incomparable and definitely priceless!

Now, it doesn't end here. This is a journey which I intend to stretch on a bit further and I am ready for how it would be in the next few weeks. In fact, I am excited to see where I could bring myself to in the next few months. :)

How come we never get contented?

2011-09-25T22:06:00.001+08:00

Yes, we don't ever get contented.

We pray and ask God for something, then say that if He gives us what we ask for, we will be happy and we will do anything just to have that. And then He grants our prayers. We become happy for the moment. The moment may last a few minutes, a few hours, a few days, or maybe even weeks; when we feel like it, stretches to even months.

But it doesn't last for too long. And that baffles me. That frustrates me - how I know that I have to be contented and happy for what has been given to me yet feel that for just a fleeting moment. Next thing I know, I'm searching for something else again. Even as I pour out these thoughts now, I know I have to be contented, and yet I'm not.

Seriously, it's easier said than done. Better to start somewhere; just focus on what I have and be happy at the moment. Stop projecting. Live in the moment. Don't project and worry. It won't get me anywhere.

It's a feat!

2011-09-17T20:57:00.001+08:00

I'm two sizes smaller and twenty three pounds lighter! :D

2010's the year of travel!

2010-04-01T21:55:00.003+08:00

My year's totally packed with travels, fun! :)

Mar 3 - 6: Coron, Palawan

- with Alvin and Office friends Jo Jose, Claire Pinon, Cherrie Mae Ilagan, Mario Santos, Tina Castro, Van Vargas, Lucy Mendoza, Janet Custodio, Kat Macabeo and boyfriend Mark Forroda, Lyn Lim, and Mara Flora

Apr 30 - May 3: Benguet, Sagada, & Baguio

- Tentatively with Alvin and Office friends. Will keep you posted on who actually goes.

Aug 25 - 30: Taiwan

- with Rosellen Yao, Joanna Lau, and her boyfriend

Nov 12 - 14: Hong Kong

- with Alvin! :)

So far, these are my personal travels scheduled. Hope there will be more!

For now, I'm super excited for the Benguet, Sagada, and Baguio trip. Woohoo!

2010

2010-04-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

passing time at an internet shop

2010-02-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

funny. never thought I'd do this, but I am passing time at an internet shop.

why? well, simply because we'll be picked up around 8:30pm and it's only 8pm now. it won't be wise to go back home, so better spend it here instead.

but anywho, I am happy for our dinner. had Crabs, Soy Chicken, Yang Chow rice, and Fish Lip soup. yumyum! :)

it's 2010!

2010-01-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

Happy new year! :D

enchanted kingdom today...

2009-12-30T00:37:00.002+08:00

just got back from enchanted kingdom. super uber tired! gosh.

arrived there at 3pm, lined up for tickets for almost an hour and got in to a very jam-packed EK...

there were so many people, on a tuesday! who would have thought that there are a lot of employees on leave on december 29th?! oh well, the rides' queue were so long it would take at least 40 minutes just for one to experience a ride.

all we wanted was to get to ride the space shuttle and rio grande, but never got the chance to... *sigh*.

but it was a great night, we spent the day with family so we just enjoyed what time we had together. :)

note to self: next time, don't go to EK during peak season.

i looove my bag!

2009-12-28T23:33:00.004+08:00

enchanted tomorrow!

2009-12-28T23:08:00.001+08:00

i hope we really get to go to enchanted tomorrow, as planned. i'm so so looking forward to spending a day outside, not facebooking. :)

my new ADORABLE keychain!

2009-12-28T22:48:00.005+08:00

just wanted to show my new lovely keychain, which i bought last weekend :)

i saw this the first time around 2 months ago, but stopped myself from buying it.

and last week, it suddenly crossed my mind. i decided to buy it, on the premise that it's still at the store.

to my surprise, this was the last piece! so i automatically bought it! :) happiness! :)

*picture taken by my official photographer - Alvin Bayani

after x years, a revival

2009-12-28T22:33:00.003+08:00

been quite a while since i last posted an entry here. should i say that i just lost interest updating it? or should i say that i got busy and so caught up in my own world that i lost track? maybe it's both, or a play of several factors.

anyway, it's just a matter of writing again and reviving this blog that will start the habit again. so i'm starting now.

what do i have to say? well, i'm bored. i have a lot of time in my hands that i don't know how to spend it.

today, these are the things i did:

1. woke up around 9am

2. ate breakfast

3. fb

4. fb some more

5. took a bath

6. back to fb-ing

7. ate lunch

8. played bejeweled at fb

9. and now, blogging

you can just imagine how much time i spent on each of the activities and you'll figure out where most of my time went to - fb-ing. all because i have so much time to spare.

i don't know if having so much time is a good idea. all year long, i've been waiting for this long vacation to come around. all year long, while i was so immersed at work and stressed out with all that i've been doing, i had this at the back of my mind. that i'd have a long time to spend on my own, outside of work, and i'd be able to relax.

well, i'm not complaining. i've enjoyed the past few days of my leave, going shopping, sleeping in, fb-ing, and what have you. i'm grateful for the time that i have to spend on my own and think about everything else except for work.

but i guess, there's a cap to it. as the saying goes, everything should be in moderation. when taken in excess, it's bad for you.

the question is, what is moderation? in this particular case, is 2 weeks just the right amount of time for one's vacation leave? i know i don't wanna go back to work just yet. but there's nothing i have to do.

well, i have a few more days to spend - 6 days to be exact. i guess i'll have to just live by the day and enjoy what i have. tomorrow, i know, will be a better day, because i'll be going somewhere so i won't be bummed out! :)

I'm 20% nerd. haha

2006-12-26T20:29:00.000+08:00

[x]you wear/own a pair of glasses
[ ] you've played some sort of video
game 5 hours straight
[ ] you have GI Joes or toy dinosaurs
[ ] you pack your lunch to school
[x] reading books is fun!
total = 2

[ ] you go to the library to "hang
out"
[x] you've corrected people's grammar
[x] maths class rocks
[x] you've told someone a joke and
nobody laughed..haha
total = 3

[ ] you like eating chinese food with
chopsticks
[ ] you've won the spelling bee
[ ] girls/boys have cooties!
[x] you've watched t.v for 4 hours
straight
[ ] sports are just not my thing
total =1

[ ] you have/had a pet tarantula,
snake, and/or lizard.
[ ] you cried because you got an F on
something
[x] your homework is ALWAYS turned in
on time
[ ] your NEVER late for class
[ ] spiderman is the coolest superhero
EVER!!!!!
total: 1

[ ] you've corrected the teacher
[ ] you want to be a doctor or surgeon
when you grow up
[ ] you have a napolean dynamite t-
shirt
[x] you always have a pen or pencil
for class
[x] you're an honor student
total = 2

[ ] you've never cheated on a
test/quiz
[ ] I dont care about my looks
[ ] you're in band
[x] you've tripped and fallen in the
hallway
[ ] spiders and bugs are way cool!
total =1

ADD THEM ALL UP AND MULTIPLY BY 2.
then post "im **% nerd"
**=ur score

survey during christmas break

2006-12-26T11:19:00.000+08:00

anong huling kinanin mo?
~~~ beef wanton noodles from chowking for dinner last night and then leche flan for dessert when i got home.

ano/cno ang katabi mo matulog mamaya?
~~~ wala.

may porn ba sa pc mo?
~~~ none.

anong huling bagay ang pinagkagastusan
mo? magkano?
~~~ bagay? for myself? a Nike polo shirt.

saan ka tumatambay at ginagawa mo pag
nageemote ka?
~~~ kung nasan man ako ng mga panahon na yon.

mahilig ka ba gumawa at magbigay ng
sulat?
~~~ just when the occasion calls for it.

anong laruan ang pinakapaborito mo
nung bata ka?
~~~ hmm.. i forgot na, but i think Atari.

sikat ka ba sa skul?
~~~before? i wouldn't call it sikat, but i knew a lot of people and were friends with most of them.

saan mo balak pumunta bukas?
~~~ sa office, back to work after the christmas break, and budget presentation pa nga.

naghuhugas ka ba ng plato?
~~~ sometimes, kung walang maghuhugas.

nagdidilig ng mga halaman?
~~~ i used to, but now someone else's assigned to do it na, so hindi na.

huling kanta na pinakinggan mo?
~~~ Moments by Westlife. that was the last song played by my ITunes.

may naging bisita ka ba dis week?
~~~ bisita? i don't know if Alvin is called "bisita," but if he's considered to be one, then cya nga. kung hindi, wala.

nakikipagtalo ka ba sa drayber ng jip
pag di k sinuklian?
~~~ no, kung 50cents lang un, no need na. but if it's worth more than that, i just tell him that he still owes me change. by then, he'll give me my change, no arguments.

sumasakay ka ba ng MRT/LRT? gaano
kadalas?
~~~ MRT and LRT, both. just sometimes, when i'm not tamad. coz when i am, i just take the cab (which happens more often).

sembreak na,magkano naipon mo?
~~~ i don't know what the relation of "sembreak" is to "ipon."

ilang programs ang nasa pc mo?
~~~ programs? i dunno, i don't count. quite a few, i must say

wireless ba ang landline nyo?
~~~ landline? wireless? parang mali ata un. "line" na nga tapos "wireless"? but then, we have a wireless phone.

may doorbell ba kayo?
~~~ yup.

cno ang huling nanlibre sayo? ano un?
~~~ ah, si alvin. we ate dinner last night sa chowking.

cnong prof ang huli mong nakita?
~~ prof? i don't remember.

cno ang kilala mo na pinaka matagal
maligo?
~~~ tita ko, she takes about an hour.

anong inorder mo nung huling kumain ka
sa labas?
~~~ beef wanton noodles and pineapple juice

anong bagay na naiisip mo na
nakapagpapaalala sa isang tao? cno ito?
~~~ CDs - alvin. hehe

ilan ang sinturon mo?
~~~ 1 lang, but i don't use it.

nauubos mo ba ang isang sachet ng
shampoo sa isang liguan?
~~~ yup

very true!

2005-12-28T16:33:00.000+08:00

He is a Man

You have yourself a perfect gentleman and a total keeperYour guy almost always acts appropriatelyHe's probably even very upstanding when you're not aroundThere's no boy left in your boyfriend - he's all man!

Is He A Boy or a Man?

2005-12-28T15:18:00.000+08:00

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

2005-12-28T14:44:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2005-07-14T15:30:00.000+08:00

You Are Somewhat Honest

You do tend to tell the truth a lot

But you also stretch the truth on occasion

You figure a little lie isn't a big deal

As long as it doesn't hurt anyone too much!

How Honest Are You?

2005-07-14T15:26:00.000+08:00

You Are 25 Years Old

25

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

so bored.

2005-07-09T20:15:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored that I'm willing to take the time to answer this survey.

1. whose picture is it that you keep in your wallet?
>>> mine. (alvin doesn't have a wallet sized pic, so I couldn't put his there.)

2. what time do you go to bed?
>>> 12mn usually. earliest at 11pm and latest at 2am.

3. what was the last thing you did before filling this
survey?
>>> looking through friendster bulletin, so that I could have a survey to fill up.

4. who's the one you always meet the most?
>>> meet the most? my co-workers. I see them 5 days a week.

5. who's the person you're gonna call if you need help?
>>> depends on what kind of help I need, but most of the time I call up alvin.

6. what's on your mind just now?
>>> alvin (isn't it obvious?)

7. who's number on your speed dials?
>>> just one (guess who)

8.with whom do you wanna be to have fun?
>>> friends and alvin.

9. what's your latest movie?
>>> ha. mr and mrs smith. I wanna watch another movie...

10. when was the last time you went out?
>>> went out? last Sunday with my family. we went to Rockwell (we simply window shopped coz I couldn't afford to shop there. I was able to buy a few things though.)

11. what do you hate the most for now?
>>> boredom. damn. I should've borrowed a book from dots.

12. when was the first time you slept alone?
>>> first time I slept alone? 1st year college, the day before our ORSEM (Orientation Seminar for those who don't know)

13. what do you wanna do for now?
>>> anything just to keep me occupied.

14. what do you do for everyday besides eat and sleep?
>>> do a LOT of number crunching at the office (that translates to sitting in front of the PC, then st staring at the numbers, trying to figure out how to go about the analysis)

15. what things could piss you off?
>>> well, let me see... rudeness, boredom, insensitive people...

16. fave pet?
>>> cats (but I haven't had a pet for the longest time)

17. colors that make you happy?
>>> pink.

18. most fave thing in your room?
>>> my big, pink pillow with mickey mouse prints on it.

19. what was the last thing you bought for your room?
>>> cordless phone.

20. any instruments in your room?
>>> instruments? I have my own radio, cordless phone, lampshade, cellphone, and my other stuff.

21. do you cook?
>>> sometimes, if nobody's available to cook.

22. miss someone?
>>> right now? yeah.

23. plan to buy something?
>>> hmm... nothing specific in mind right now, but I know I'll be having a few in the list in a few weeks' time.

24. are you satisfied with your life now?
>>> I am, very much.

25.do you like seafood?
>>> very much. I could stay up all day just eating seafoods.

26. breakfast or dinner?
>>> I like dinner better.

27. what do you usually eat for breakfast?
>>> pandesal with magnolia gold salted butter, plus black coffee (yum!)

28. did you eat breakfast today?
>>> yes I did, McDo pancakes.

29. do you recycle?
>>> sometimes, if I feel like it.

30. do you have a laptop?
>>> no, and I don't have plans of buying one.

31. what's your favorite fast food?
>>> favorite fast food? none.

32. cats or dogs?
>>> cats

33. salty or sweet?
>>> salty, most of the time.

34. city or country?
>>> country is better.

35. what's your favorite kind of jeans?
>>> jeans? I don't wear jeans that much.

36. Is kissing normal for our age?
>>> for our age? yeah, definitely.

37. are you athletic?
>>> very not.

38. do you swear?
>>> sometimes.

39. would you ditch your friends for a date?
>>> no.

40. do you have your own cell phone?
>>> of course, who doesn't?

41. what do you wear to bed?
>>> long shirt or baggy shirt and shorts or baggy shirt and pajamas.

42. ever haD a crush on a teacher?
>>> none.

43. coke or pepsi?
>>> anything goes for me.

44. sugar or spice?
>>> spice (I don't have a sweet tooth)

45. can you use chopsticks?
>>> yup.

46. do you like to read for pleasure?
>>> I like to, but that doesn't mean I get the time to.

47. do you care about getting good grades?
>>> yes, but good grades for me doesn't mean perfect scores.

48. have you ever fallen asleep in class?
>>> back in fourth year high school, in chinese class. aside from that, no.

49. get a job or ask your parents for money?
>>> I have a job already.

50. is your dad strict?
>>> he wasn't.

51. do your parents give you enough privacy?
>>> my mom does.

52. do your parents trust you?
>>> my mom does.

53. would you trade places (in life) with your best friends..?
>>> I wouldn't. I'm satisfied with my life. I don't wanna wish for something more coz it only means discontentment and inappreciation for what I have.

54. does your best friend get on your nerves?
>>> sometimes.

55. do you make friends quickly?
>>> not so quick...

56. do you get jealous of your friends?
>>> some friends, yes.

57. do you tell your mom everything?
>>> no.

58. what do you and your parents fight about?
>>> misunderstandings.

love survey

2005-07-02T21:42:00.000+08:00

1 .How many times have you fallen in love, for real?
>>> twice. i wasn't happy with the 1st one though.

2. Did they love you back?
>>> the first one, i think yes, but i'm not so sure. the second one, i am sure of. :)

3. When you fall out of love, do you easily give up and get out of the relationship?
>>> not that easily. i try to gauge whether i have really fallen out of love. (for the most part, i'm talking theoretically.)

4. Who made you laugh the most?
>>> alvin. :)

5. Cry most?
>>> the first one. i'm not gonna mention his name.

6. Spend time with most?
>>> alvin. :)

7. The one you can't 4get..
>>> alvin again. :)

8. Did you ever love someone that didnt become your bf?
>>> yup.

9. Have you ever cried for a boy?
>>> yup. and i regret it.

10. Willing to give up something for the one you love?
>>> i haven't really thought of that yet. but i think i will be.

11. Willing to fight for the one you love?
>>> depends on for what cause i'll be fighting for and who i will be fighting against.

12. Fell in love with someone taken? Who?
>>> yep. again, the first one.

13. Thought u'd never love again because you were hurt by someone you really love?
>>> yeah, i did think that, but i'm okay now and very much in love and happy.

14. Do you fall inlove and get infatuated easily?
>>> nope.

15. Right now, who are you thinking of?
>>> who am i thinking of? who else? :)

16. What do you usually fight for? what is right or what you feel?
>>> usually? what i feel. ewan, it really depends e. pero again, what is right is sometimes relative. sometimes it really depends on the person on what is right.

17. Is someone special makin you happy now?
>>> yep. and i am soooo soooo happy with him :)

19. Craziest thing ever done for a gf/bf...
>>> secret. :)

20. Most romantic thing happened between you and your special someone?!?
>>> dami e. couldn't really specify.

21. Have you ever loved unconditionally?
>>> right now. :)

22. Are you liberated or conservative?
>>> more on the liberated side.

23. Ryt now, are u inlove with someone?
>>> yes. yes, and yes. :)

24. Is he inlove with u 2?
>>> yes :)

25. Who do u prioritize first... friends or your special someone?
>>> cyempre cya, but that doesn't mean that i don't have time for my friends. :) my life is balanced among my family, boyfriend, co-workers, and friends. :) couldn't ask for more. :) Thank God :)

new chapter

2005-05-18T11:59:00.000+08:00

I'm officially employed! I feel like this is a totally new chapter in my life. My student life has ended last March, and from that time til May 15, I was a bum. But now, I am officially part of the employment statistics.

I started just this week, May 16 to be exact. So far, life has been kinda lax since Monday. I still didn't have any reports to do (coz I didn't know how to do them the time they were supposed to be filed). I'm still learning the ropes of my position. I'm reading financial reports and financial statements about the operations of the company so that I have an idea of how the company is faring in the industry right now.

It's almost lunch time and I've nothing much to do that's why I'm adding an article to my not-so-updated blog. I finished doing a report just an hour earlier, just so I would get to familiarize myself with it and I would be able to do the report the next time around (hopefully the Monday after next week coz I may not be in office this coming Monday as I have to be in training that time). It was fine, kinda long but I can get by. And I'll be doing that and much more every Monday once I start with it. (Not bad, it's actually fun though a bit mechanical and technical).

What's fun about my work is that I get to learn more about the industry that we are in. I also like the feel of knowing how to interpret financial statements just by the numbers written there. Call me a nerd, but it is fun. I never knew that financial statements could actually tell you a story about the company. Well, teachers back in college were telling us that, but I never really got to validate that until now.

I'm excited to start doing the analysis part. I'm sure that's gonna be fun. I just hope that I won't get too swamped with work a few weeks from now.

Anyway, I'll stop here. I think we have to go out to lucnh already coz I'm due for a meeting by 1:00pm. (Yikes, my first week here and I'm already to attend a meeting with the higher ups).

God bless me. And I'm sure He will. (Thank you, Lord for everything. I am very much happy and contented. I surely couldn't ask for more.)

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2005-04-26T18:38:00.000+08:00

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updates

2005-04-19T14:16:00.000+08:00

The past few days have been very very tiring for me. For one thing, I always sleep around 1:00 am and then wake up at 7:00 am. I can't get myself to sleep earlier than 1:00 am; I guess I really got used to it, considering that I've been used to that sleeping habit for the past four years of my life. As for the wake up time, I am somehow forced to get up at such time because of my tutoring commitments or my job interviews and/or exams. And because it has become a habit for me, I cannot go back to sleep past that time, even though I sleep as late as 4:00 am.

I'm not complaining. I guess that's better than just doing nothing and sleeping all day long. It somehow prepares me for the time when I'd be working. Speaking of which, I still don't have a job as of the meantime. I have an offer from a particular company (I'm gonna keep the name of the company). The position offered is Project Development Assistant at barely above minimum wage. Well, I don't think I'd accept that offer and get into the company. For one thing, it's located in Makati. I don't think it's worth my time and effort. Besides, it doesn't really have much to offer me, I think.

Anyway, I'm also waiting for a formal offer from a particular bank. I had three interviews with that bank yesterday and reading between the lines, it seems that I'd be able to get into that. I just hope that I'd receive more than the first offer, but even if I wouldn't, I think it's better because its near our house. It wouldn't really cost me much, in terms of time, effort, and money. Besides, I think it has a lot to offer me in terms of career. Well, I do hope this is it. I do pray to God He'd lead me to the company that is the best for me. It may not be the best company there is. So long as it's the best for me, then God bring me to it. :)

Whatever happens in the next few days, I leave it up to God.

Last summer break of my life

2005-04-10T17:50:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I last posted a journal entry here. The past few entries have been surveys that I got from the Friendster bulletin board. It's not that I don't have anything to say about what's been happening in my life; it's just that I'm so tired to say something because of the very many things that have been happening.

To start off, I'm still unemployed. I've submitted copies of my resumé to a few companies and I've been to a few interviews as well. As of the meantime, however, I still have no offers from companies. I must say that I'm not really disappointed as I thought I would be. I'm still in vacation mode as of the meantime and I'm relishing the last summer break of my life.

Last week though, while I was at home on a Monday, doing nothing - just watching TV and trying very hard to keep myself occupied - I felt restless. I couldn't stand the feeling of having nothing to do for the rest of the summer. Somehow, staying at home for the rest of the day just waiting for companies to call me up to schedule interviews is not as relaxing as I thought it would be. I knew that I had to keep myself occupied even for a few hours in a day. I surely am not meant to be unproductive. It makes me feel useless and I don't like the feeling.

I decided then and there to start tutoring again and asked my friend, who owns a tutorial center, if the center was in need of tutors for the summer. She said that help will be very much appreciated and asked me if I could help them out. Whew... that's how I ended up tutoring again, even if I vowed to myself that I wouldn't do anything over the summer break.

Right now, I have quite a hectic schedule - tutor near our house, tutor in Ateneo, interviews in companies - but I like being on-the-go for the most part of the day. It gives me the feel that I'm of use to this country. (hahaha)

I do wish though, that I'd be working once June comes around. I may not get into the company that I'd like to be in; what matters is that I'd be in somewhere that God wants me to be.

another survey during holy week

2005-03-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

1. kelan ang bday mo?
august 10

2. may fave song ka ba ngayon?ano?
nah, don't have a fave song e.

3. Gurang ka ba?
nope. :)

4. close ba kayo ng mga pinsan mo?
yup. :) it's fun.

5. ilang beses ka maligo sa isang araw?
usually once lang. pero sometimes, pag d pa sobra pagod, twice.

6. anong gamit ang ginagamit mo ngayon?
right now? pc cyempre. :)

7. sino-sino mga kasama mo sa bahay nyo?
my mom, sis, tita, grace, lola, and the maid.

8. If God gave you the chance to pick your gender,which would you prefer? Boy or Girl?
Girl pa rin ako forever.

9. mahilig ka bang kumanta habang naliligo?
yup yup. but i seldom do it nowadays.

10. may sarili ka bang computer?
yup :) hehehe. i'm gonna have it changed though. :)

11. mahilig ka bang mag internet?
just to check my mail, friendster, and YM with my friends :)

12. anong favorite mong site?
gmail. hehehe.

13. kung tatanungin ka kung anong silbi mo dito sa mundo, anong isasagot mo?
to come up with world peace. hehehe.

14. anong fave mong color?
pink! and u can see that in my wardrobe and stuff as well. :D

15. anong kulay ng damit mo ngayon?
it's white. i'm at home e, i'm wearing a very large t-shirt. :D

16. anong kulay ng bed sheet mo?
pink! :D

17. kung merong kang 1 hundred thousandngayong oras na to anong gagawin mo?
100k? tell my mom to buy me a condo na. she'll pay the downpayment then i'll pay the montly rent with the 100k. hehehehe :)

18. kung may isa kang wish na gustong matupadas in ngayon na, ano yun?
wish? hmm.....secret. :)

19. anong gusto mong gawin sa mga oras na ito?
right now? nothing specific. just have something to do would be fine with me. that's how bored i am.

20. sinong pinakahuling tao ang naiisip mo bagoka matulog?
hmm...no one in particular. it really depends e.

21. pag gising mo sa umaga?
sa umaga? again, nobody in particular.

22. sino sa mga friends mo yung alam mongpwede mong pagkatiwalaan?
junie, rosellen, kathrine, pauline, spencer, ruther, rocky, niña, kate, deeyan

23. sino naman sa kanila yung pinaka gusto mongkasama?
junie

24. sino naman sa kanila yung madalas mongmakasama?
c junie din :)

25. cnong best friend/s mo?
best friend? c junie paren. hehehe. aside from her, si rosellen.

26. may best friend ka bang girl?
yup, c junie nga girl e.

27. kung may pagkakataon possible bang magingkayo ng best friend mo?
pwede cguro (theoretically speaking).

28. sinong huli mong naka chat?
si pay. hehehe. :) was consulting something with him. hehehe. thanks again pay! :)

29. sino huli mong nakausap sa phone?
phone? c ken.

30. na in-love k nb?
yup.

31. in love ba sya sayo?
when i was in love with him? yeah.

32. nag ka girlfriend/boyfriend ka na ba?
yup.

33. sino ang trip mong kasama sa mahabangbiyahe at bakasyon?
hmm.... secret :)

34. sino huling nag message sayo?
message? i think it was pay din.

35. sino huling tumawag sayo?
c ken.

36. sino yung kasama mo tuwing gigimik ka?
junie, but i don't know if it's gonna be the same way since we graduated already... i do hope so.

37. sino crush mo ngayon?
secret :)

38. anong talent mo?
talent? cramming. hehehe :) one of the greatest crammers.

39. marunong ka ba kumanta?
yup.

40. ano gusto mong sabihin sa mahal mo?
sa mga mahal ko? hmm.... i do hope and pray that whatever happens, u'll always remember that i'll always be here. one holler and i'll be there :)

school survey

2005-03-05T00:22:00.000+08:00

1. San ka nagcollege?
- Ateneo de Manila University
2. fave mong tambayan sa skul
- Aegis room or Chem (hahaha, c Junie kasi e.)
3. madalas ka sa library?
- hindi ako madalas sa library. i'm there kung may kelangan kunin for acads. otherwise, i stay as far away as possible.
4. kumakain ka sa canteen?
- yeah, mas madalas ngayong senior year though.
5. npalabas ka na ba sa library?
- not yet. there were times that we were told to keep quiet though. it usually happens if we're studying as a group for an ME subject.
6. eh sa classroom??
- not yet. mabait akong student e.
7. bumagsak ka na ba sa ibang subjects mo?
- wala pa.
8. ano fave mong subject?
- international finance, operations research, development economics.
9. nag-cutting ka na ba khit mnsan
- madalas. my cuts aren't maximized, but i can't say that they're not used up either.
10. nahuli ka na bang nangongopya??
- no, kasi i don't cheat in class.
11. nwalan ka na ba ng cel sa skul?
- not yet. i hope it doesn't ever happen, in school or anywhere else.
12. eh money?
- yep, nawala wallet ko sa trike. nahulog. stupid.
13. lgi ka ba late
- nope, i'm not ever late. i hate being late.
14. lgi ka ba absent
- only in subjects where the teachers don't check attendance.
15. du u wear ur id ol d tym?
- nope. kapag nakakita lang ako ng guard or kung pupunta ng library.
16. do u write legibly?
- oh yes.
17. use cel inside ur room?
- yeah, but mostly for business matters, not personal ones.
18. mdmi ka ba nkktang magxota sa skul?
- yeah. quite a lot, i must say.
19. ilan dnadla mo notbuks?
- it depends. depends on the number of subjects (if i have one notebook per subj). kung may binder, just one.
20. eh books?
- walang books. unless they're needed, i don't bring them. ang mga dala ko talaga mga readings for Father David.
21. canteen or library?
- caf na lang.
22. absent or cut classes?
- what's the difference? does absent mean that you cut all classes in a day? if so, then cut lang.
23. write or listen?
- again, it depends. pero usually i listen.
24. sec 1 or 2?
- walang ganyan sa college e
25. no teachers or no classes
- what i prefer? no classes na lang.
26. ballpen or pencil
- ballpen.
27. writing lectures or writing none sense?
- lectures most of the time.

questions.

2005-03-04T21:39:00.000+08:00

PART I:
1.last place I've been
- Schmitt Hall. Was hanging out with my chem friends after the SOSE Outstanding Research Paper Awards.
2. I am
- bored.
3. They say I am
- friendly, responsible, mukhang masungit.
4. Yesterday
- was a full day for me.
5. Last person who missed called?
- Junie. She was looking for me yesterday when I was in Glorietta, looking for a dress.
6. Last person you called?
- Junie. Was looking for her this afternoon.
7. Last name in your received calls
- Not name, just a number. Someone from Bayer Philippines called me up yesterday to talk about the sponsorship check.
8. How old are you?
- twenty.
9. What music is playing?
- none. The DJs are talking right now as I'm typing this line.
10. last thing I drank?
- C2 lemon green tea. I love it! :D
11. Last thing I bought
- except for food, a pair of shoes the other day with my mom.
12. I want to
- sleep, but I'm not yet sleepy.
13. I really hate
- backbiters.
14. I have a crush on
- nobody at this particular instance.
15. I like
- answering surveys like this when I'm bored.

HAVE YOU EVER ::
1. gotten wasted?
- several times, usually when I pull up all-nighters just to finish something for school. (this counts because the longer one stays up, the higher the alcohol content in the body becomes even though one hasn't actually taken in any alcoholic beverage)
2. ran away?
- not ever. unless you count my staying at a dorm running away.
3. broken someone's heart?
- I'm not so sure of this. I think I already did, but I hope not.
4. had ur heart broken?
- Yeah, just once though. I've learned already. It was a mistake.
5. cried when someone died?
- Yeah, when my mom's dad died. It was so sad, coz we were "close" and I didn't realize his worth until he passed away.
6. broken a bone?
- hasn't happened to me yet. I hope it won't ever happen to me.
7. cried in school?
- Yup, three times I think. Kinder 2, when I thought my family wasn't going to surprise me with something in school for my birthday. Second instance: Grade 5, had an argument with a very close friend then. Third instance: 1st year high school, during flag ceremony; in connection to my grandfather's death.

THIS OR THAT ::
1. coke or pepsi?
- coke. though I don't drink sodas that much.
2. sprite or 7up?
- 7up.
3. flowers or candies?
- flowers. I don't have a sweet tooth. I won't be able to appreciate candies unless the aesthetic value will defeat that of a flower bouquet's.
4. quiet or loud?
- me? I'm loud most of the time, but there are times that I'm quiet. In fact, I can stay in a room for the whole day without even talking to someone.
5. blondes or brunettes?
- um, I don't really give a damn.
6. tall or short?
- tall is better.
7. jeans or shorts?
- shorts. They're more comfortable than jeans are.

WHAT/WHO IS ::
1. ur good luck charm?
- nah, I don't believe in such.
2. person u hate most?
- hate the most? well, I don't hate anyone. That's too strong a word.
3. fave number/s?
- 7

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ::
1. color/s?
- PINK
2. movie/s?
- Life is Beautiful, Matrix Trilogy, Princess Diaries 1 & 2, Million Dollar Baby, A Beautiful Mind, With Honors, The Notebook, Mean Girls
3. book?
- Bible, Nicholas Sparks books, Danielle Steele books, Angels and Demons, Da Vince Code, The Five People You Meet in Heaven, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept, The Princess Diaries collection (I have them!)
4. subject/s in school?
- Math, Operations Research, International Finance
5. holiday/s?
- Christmas
6. season?
- I like summer better.

WHO ::
1. makes u laugh d most?
- hmm...Don't have anybody particular in mind.
2. makes u smile?
- smile? Ace
3. has a crush on u?
- I don't know.

DO YOU EVER ::
1. sit by d phone waiting for a call
- nope. I usually have a lot to do, that's why even when I'm expecting a call I don't really wait.
2. save yahoo conversations?
- all my YM conversations are archived.
3. save emails?
- not really, unless they're important and I think I'd have to keep them.
4. wish u were someone else?
- sometimes.
5. cried bcoz of someone's mean words?
- yes, several times I think. It's hard being sensitive.

PART II:
1) anong ginawa mo kahapon?
- went to school to have my clearance form signed, went to Makati, then to Glorietta to window shop, then to Gateway to watch Million Dollar Baby with my friends, went home, then telebabad.
2) san ka/kayo nagpunta recently?
- school.
3) anong wallpaper ng pc mo?
- my Aegis pictorial pose for the yearbook org page.
4) anong nasa ibabaw ng tv nyo?
- at home? none.
5) anong damit mo ngaun?
- bedtime clothes.
6) anong kinokolek mo?
- books.
8)anong nararamdaman mo ngaun?
- bored.
9)anong street ang tinutuluyan mo ngayon?
- park 9
10) anong favorite flavor mo ng ice cream?
- strawberry
11) may pasok kba sa monday?
- no more classes, but I have to get my grades.
12) anong oras na?
- 9:22 pm
13) kailan ka huling nagpagupit?
- a month ago, i think.
14) kailan ka huling nanood ng sine sa sinehan?
- just yesterday with my friends.
15) anong pelikula un?
- Million Dollar Baby
16) cnu kasama mo?
- Junie, Kuya Mike, and Ate Mai
17) n'sync o backstreet boys?
- N'Sync.
18) anong favorite mong chichiria?
- Ruffles
19)anong food ang gusto nyong pareho ng bf/gf?
- I'm single :)
20) sino-sinong tumawag sa iyo ngayon?
- today? nobody yet.
21) nagmumura kba?
- nope.
22) anong ni-lunch mo khapon?
- bread.
23) anong huling pnanood mo kgabi?
- Maalaala Mo Kaya
24) nag be-breakfast kba tuwing weekdays?
- nope. I eat lunch na.
25) mag sisimba ka bkas?
- It's saturday tomorrow.
26) anong gusto mong makuhang gift s valentine's?
- kahit ano okay lang. besides, valentine's already over.
27) kng naninigarilyo ka, anong gus2 mong brand?
- n/a
28) na22wa kba pag nakakakita k ng maskot?
- not really.
29) board games or video games
- board games.
30) bahay o mall?
- mall pero nauubusan ka ng money pag dun ka.
31) black o white?
- white.
32) nasusuka kba pg nasakay ng bus or taxi?
- nope.
33) saan probinsya mo?
- wala. I'm a Manila girl
34) spaghetti o carbonara?
- carbonara!
35) abs-cbn o gma?
- ABS!
36) sino mga tao s bhay nyo 2day?
- just dormmates
37) inaantok k na ba? bkt?
- not yet. i'm just bored.
38) pencil o ballpen?
- ballpen
39) favorite color/s mo?
- pink.
40) gusto mo bang mag pa-tattoo?
- nope.
41) e mag pa body piercing?
- nope.
42) anong ginagawa mo pag gising tuwing weekends??
- marami.
43) harry potter o lord of the rings?
- harry potter.
44) dream destination mo?
- Paris
45) may namimiss ka ba ngayon? sino sino?
- none.

PART III:
1.Have you ever THOUGHT you were in love?
- thought I was in love but really wasn't? yeah, when I was younger.
2.Do you think you're ready for love?
- I think I am, but I prefer being single for the meantime.
3.Do you believe kissing is a way to share feelings or is it just fun?
- it's a way of sharing your feelings.
4.Have you ever been heartbroken?
- once. and I've learned BIG TIME.
5.If so how long did it last?
- how long did it last? I think for a couple of months.
6.Have you ever thought you loved someone, but the feelings went away?
- It hasn't happened yet.
7.Are you afraid of being emotionally alone?
- Nope. It's okay with me. I think I'd be able to live with that.
8.Do you want to fall in love?
- Want as in WANT? not really. If it comes, then it does. If it doesn't, then so be it.
9.Have you ever loved someone who didn't feel the same?
- nah, not yet.
10.Have you ever cried over someone you thought you loved?
- nope. I cried over someone I loved, not someone I THOUGHT I loved.
11. Has anyone ever told you you're too young for love?
- Nobody did so far.
12.Have you ever wished upon a star for love or for someone?
- Nope, I didn't believed in such.
13. Have you ever been told you broke somebody's heart?
- Someone told me I broke his heart.
14. Have you ever told anyone they broke your heart?
- I think I did.
15. Have you ever wanted someone so bad that without them you were miserable?
- For a while then. But I eventually got over it.
16.Do you believe you can love someone and be with someone else?
- yeah, I think that's possible.
17.Do you think love is a feeling that has to be shared by two people or it's not real?
- nope, it can be a one way thing. It doesn't have to be a two-way thing to be real. Besides, I don't think it's a feeling.
18.Have you ever been told "I Love You" and if so did you feel the same?
- yeah, I've been told that several times already. Did I feel the same? Just once.
19.Do you love somebody right now?
- love somebody romantically? nope.
20.Does somebody love you right now?
- romantically, I don't think so.
21.Do you believe this quote: "Love begins with a smile increases with a kiss and ends with a tear"?
- nah, I don't think it always has to be that way. for some people it may happen, but it's not something to generalize.
22.Do you have your own quote you'd like to share?
- quote? not really a quote. But as of the moment, my mind's empty.
23.Are you single/taken?
- single by choice and happy. :)

week after finals

2005-03-04T19:45:00.000+08:00

I'm finally done with everything. I'm no longer a student.

I guess that says a lot. Or does it not? Well, maybe those who have graduated already and those who are graduating like me can understand what I mean by such a statement. I think I don't have to explain myself and go into details about it.

Anyway, it's nice but at the same time terrifying. Nice because I don't have to study and memorize any longer. Nice because finally I'm done with the sleepless nights. Nice because I accomplished something. I wish it stops there.

I wish it weren't terrifying. It's terrifying because suddenly I'm at a limbo. I'm no longer a student, but I'm not working either. In short, BUM. It makes me think how long it'll be before I'd take on a job. How I wish it wouldn't be THAT hard to find one.

God, please help us.

Survey 2

2005-03-02T02:50:00.000+08:00

01. Your name plus "a" ?
pia-a (i don't think we should add an "a" to it)

02. Your dominant feeling at the moment?
bored. have nothing much to do, that's why i'm answering such surveys and posting them on my blog already.

03. What are you listening to right now?
a song playing over the radio that i don't know, a kind of oldies, i think.

04. A part of a song lyric that's in your mind right now?
none, the song playing over the radio has overridden it na.

05. Describe where you are right now?
i'm in my room at the dorm, sitting in front of the pc. my bed is located at my left and my radio is placed there.

06. What is your highlight of the week?
highlight of the week? i don't have much to do na. that's new, really. because of that, i'll be dropping resumes na.

07. What are you craving to have right now?
craving to have? a new set of wardrobe and a new collection of books.

08. A good random childhood memory?
random childhood memory? none at the moment, couldn't think of one right now.

09. A not good childhood memory?
when this kid untied the knot at the back of my swimsuit. we were at the beach in Kuwait then.

10. What are your nicknames?
pia for school and school friends. richelle and chelle for people at home.

11. Your three plans for tomorrow?
a. start my clearance
b. tutor a 3rd year high school kid
c. bum around

12. Your three plans for today?
for today? these are the things i did:
a. slept til 3pm
b. went home for a while to celebrate my grandfather's 5th year death anniversary
c. arranged my school stuff

13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
someone right now? no one in particular, actually.

14. Do you party?
sometimes, when i have the chance.

15. Do you like twins?
twins? not so much.

16. Fill in the blank: "I am..
scared of the future.

17. Say something in five words to the person who sent you this!
cza, happy grad! take care!

18. Mary has her little lamb. What do you wanna have?
what do i wanna have? a good life. a good life = a good career + a place of my own.

19. Say anything you like to whoever is reading your answers!
it's nice to have nothing much to do, for the first time in how many years. hope you enjoyed reading my answers. :)

Survey

2005-03-02T01:04:00.000+08:00

1.saan ka nag-aral at anong batch?
High School: Grace Christian High School, 2001
College: Ateneo de Manila University, 2005

2.teachers enemy ka ba?
High School: Nope, I was close to some of my teachers then.
College: I haven't been a teachers' enemy as well. Most of the time I didn't really care much for the teacher.

3.anong kulay ng bolpen ang lagi mong ginagamit?
High School: At first I used blue pens, but as the years progressed, I switched to black pens.
College: I used black pens for most, if not all, of my stay in college.

4.parasite ka ba?
High School: I wasn't really a parasite. There were times that I brought my own stuff, but there were also days when I asked for some from classmates.
College: Most of the time I asked for paper. :D

5.nangongopya ka ba?
High School: Nope, I didn't.
College: I remember a time in microeconomics. We were all copying off each other's answers. It was a take home exam and it was damn too difficult.

6.nagpapakopya?
High School: No, even when some asked me, I didn't allow them.
College: Again, during the microeconomics incident. :D

7.nagdadala ka ba ng sarili mong papel?
High School: Yes, I did. But there were times when I forgot to bring; only a few times, I guess.
College: When it was announced to bring paper, yes. Otherwise, no.

8.nasa top 10 ka ba ng klase?
High School: Almost there. Star section e. But I'm sure I was in the top 10% of the batch.
College: Nope. I wish I was, but I didn't even try.

9.favorite mo ba ang math?
High School: It wasn't my favorite really. Let's just say math and I are compatible with each other.
College: I guess it became a favorite, with me being in my course, I think I'd really get to have it as my favorite. I'm even teaching it.

10.sino ang pinakaayaw mong adviser/teacher?
High School: Our second year teacher in asian history. I forgot his name. I got the lowest ever grade in high school from him. His exams and notes were irrelevant e.

11.pinakaayaw mong klasmeyt?
High School: I don't remember hating anyone then.
College: hmm...I don't know her name. She was a classmate in Philo.

12.highest average mo?
High School: 94 point something.
College: secret na to.

13.sino ang crush mo nung HS?
High School: there were several.
College: hmm...again, there were a few. But I'm not telling.

14.ano ang school hymn niyo?
High School: Wonderful Grace of Jesus
College: Song for Mary

15.fave event?
High School: retreat :)
College: Bowl for FAME

16.saan ang paborito mong sulok sa klasrum?
High School: I like being in front :)
College: Again, up front. :p

17.natutulog ka ba sa klase?
High School: only during 4th year chinese class. "Snow White" was our teacher and she was boring. She didn't really care what we would do in class.

18.gustung-gusto mo ba ang mga diagnostic tests?
High School: not so much. They took up too much time and caused me headaches always.
College: again, not really. But there weren't a lot of those in college. (good thing)

19.kilala mo ba si Genghis Khan?
High School: I think during second year I got to know him.
College: Still know him. Encountered him again in Asian History during my second year under Mr. Mendoza.

20.favorite mo ba ang PE?
High School: I didn't have PE then because I was a scout. I like scouting a lot though :p
College: It was okay for me. It was tiring to go to the covered courts though.

21.me swimming pool ba kayo sa skul?
High School: None.
College: Yeah, at the grade school area.

22.oval, meron?
High School: I don't think there was.
College: yeah, there is.

23.tennis court?
High School: none.
College: I think there is one beside the covered courts.

24.nagbabalitaan ba kayo tuwing wednesday sa Araling Panlipunan?
High School: we didn't have Araling Panlipunan then. It was called by a different name, which I forgot.
College: Again, no Araling Panlipunan.

25.buraot ka ba?
I don't know what this means, so I'll skip this.

26.naisip mo na bang sunugin ang skul niyo?
High School: Nah, I liked it even though the administration had flaws.
College: No din.

27.ano ang pinakanamimiss mo?
High School: Choir, Scouting, and the Special Math classes held in the Special Math room.
College: Orgs, the groupworks with ME people, the cramming days.

taking a break from the rush of it all

2005-02-08T05:09:00.000+08:00

i'm taking a break from doing my philo paper that's due on wednesday (feb9). i'm on my 9th page already (the minimum number of pages is 12, but i don't think i'll stick to the minimum) and i'm not yet halfway through. i have to finish this by this morning (9am at the latest) because i still have an exam in financial eco on wed and i have to study for the exam tonight.

whew...such a very tiring thing to do. i'm so tired already, yet i feel pressured because of the many things that have to be accomplished in so little time. i wish i had gottent the gist of the paper earlier so that i could have started and finished earlier and i would not be up by this ungodly hour, typing my thoughts away on Rousseau and Arendt on freedom and totalitarianism.

yeah, i hate the topic. i like Aristotle and Machiavelli better than Rousseau and Arendt. my head goes spinning whenever i get to read a line of Rousseau or Arendt. that's how much i despise it, and yet i'm forced to make a paper on the subject of the authors mentioned. that's 50% of the final grade in philo, that's why i have to make this good.

thank God i got A in my first two papers, but that's only 20% of the final grade combined. i still need at least 50% to pass. i really wish father david had this "first impressions last" thing and he would give me an A outright and not read my paper anymore. *sigh...

anyway, gotta get back to writing the paper.

prayer in times of uncertainty

2005-02-02T15:08:00.000+08:00

a few more weeks 'til school gets done. it's kinda scary. i don't know what life after college will be. i don't know if i'll ever get a job that i'd like and at the same time will be able to give me the compensation i'd need.

some people tell me that i'd eventually get a job once i graduate. i've heard a lot of people praise me, cite my qualities, and tell me that i won't have a hard time searching for a job.

i'm not so sure though. it seems like life after college is very much unpredictable. i don't know what will happen to me. i don't know where exactly i will go. it seems like life's path has suddenly blurred and i don't know how to go about it.

life has never been like this for me before. before i used to know what i wanted and i knew that i'd get what i want. now, i still know what i want, but i'm not so sure anymore whether i'd get it, or if i'd even get anything else.

that's how much troubled i am these past few days, thinking about my life after college. yeah, i have so much plans for the future, but i'm not sure anymore if these plans will push through. suddenly i've lost the certainty that i have had for the past few years of my life.

it's so damn confusing and scary. i pray to God for everything. i pray that He will still guide me through the rest of my life, whatever happens. i pray that He will always be by my side and that i will never forget that. i pray that as i go through life (this time real life), i will be able to discern what is right for me. i pray that i may have the courage to face whatever is awaiting for me. lastly, i pray for continuous blessings from Him. may i never be disheartened when it comes to Him.

Sleep

2005-01-29T20:38:00.000+08:00

After my long trip to the library, I went straight to the dorm and slept, without turning on my alarm clock. I fell into a deep sleep immediately. After what felt like several hours, I woke up. To my amazement, only an hour has passed. I went back to sleep again. After an hour again, I woke up, but to me it felt like I've already been asleep for a whole day. I went back to my deep sleep and after ten minutes, someone woke me up. Again, I felt as if the ten minute sleep was worth several hours.

Aside from feeling so refreshed from the sleep, I had a lot of dreams. These dreams occurred right after I fell into sleep. The dreams were so vivid when I was sleeping and there were a lot of them that I couldn't really remember all of them.

This occasion happens only once in a blue moon for me. I couldn't even remember if it already happened to me before. It was so weird, yet so satisfying. Sleeping for just a few hours yet waking up so refreshed and energized, it really felt so nice especially in this hectic time of the year for graduating students like me.

I really thank God for giving me the chance to experience such a deep sleep. I never knew such a sleep could be possible. Now I know that in the midst of everything that's been happening, God still loves me. Thank you God.

"And we know that all things work together for good to those that love God, for those who have been called according to his purpose." - Romans 8:28

One more month to go.

2005-01-26T13:49:00.000+08:00

The Ateneo Seniors have only one more month of classes to go before we actually get to rest from all that'e been happening. This isn't simply a temporary rest from school, but it will be a permanent one. In a few months' time, if God wills it, most of us who plan to work will already be working. It's kinda scary, but it is a reality that has to be faced by every graduating student.

One more month to go. Last month to go. Everything ends on February 25, 2005. But before the end comes, there are still a lot more to do. Just as short as the one month is, so numerous are the school work that needs to be done.

Let me enumerate the immediate needs:
1. Hi166 exam on Monday.
2. Hi166 presentation on Friday.
3. Ph104 20-paged paper due two weeks from now. (The thesis statement takes up one whole page. Just imagine how hard it's going to be. It's hard enough trying to understand of the statement itself. How much more would it take for the paper to be produced in two weeks' time?)
4. Alumni FrAMEd on Feb27 (on a Sunday) - this means a whole lot more preparation for the event. I'm very much grateful to Sherwin for taking the responsibility of overseeing the event and coordinating the different people needed to accomplish it.
5. Ec142 exam on Feb9.

So far, I'm so tired already. I really need a rest from all of these. One month more to go, but within the one month there needs a lot to be done. So much to do with so little time allotted.

Some Truths

2005-01-22T17:57:00.000+08:00

A.NAGAWA mo na bang..
1. Maglakad sa kalye khit d ka pa nagsusuklay at hihilamos sa umaga?
- Yes. I already did, especially when I was at home.
2. Tumawid sa baha ng Espana?
- Oh yes. I don't wanna recall that experience ever.
3. Maligo sa ulan na walang bra/brief?
- Not yet.
4. Tumawid sa no jaywalking zone?
- Yes, several times. Pero there was this one time na nahuli ako along with several others. I didn't know naman kasi na bawal tumawid dun e.
5. Magdial ng mga number sa telepono ng mga taong d mo kilala?
- Not yet.
6. Maglagay ng thumbtacks sa upuan ngteacher mo?
- I'm not mean.
7. Magsulat sa pader ng school?
- I think I already did.
8. Magsulat sa puno?
- Hindi pa ata.
9. Umakyat sa bakod ng school?
- Nope. Ayaw ko nga. Nakapalda kami nun no.
10. Magpanggap na ibang tao sa telepono?
- Yes.
11. Isumbong ang kaklase mong pinakopya mona nataasan ka pa?
- Not yet, pero ang sarap isumbong, lalo na kung nagmayabang pa pagkatapos nun. Well, this actually happened to me, but I didn't say anything na lang.
12. Halikan ang crush mo habang tulog?
- Nope.
13. Awayin ang school guard nyo?
- Not yet, wala pa naman reason to do that.

B. KAYA mo bang..
1. Mag shop lift?
- Yes I can, but I'd rather not.
2. Pindutin ung fire alarm sa bldg nio?
- Um, sa building NAMIN? cguro hindi.
3. Tapikin sa balikat ung priest sa simbahan?
- Why would I do that?
4. Patayin ung speaker o ung microphone ngteacher mo?
- Of course, kaya un.
5. Matulog ng walang damit sa ibang bahay?
- I wouldn't dare.
6. Dayain ang grades mo?
- Grades ko? Hindi ko kaya. Nakakakonsensya.
7. Magbihis sa harap ng mga tao?
- Bihis? I think I already did that several times in front of my dormmates.
8. Itago ang phone ng kaibigan mo?
- Hahaha. Yeah, I can do that. Actually I already did just two weeks ago. I was laughing so hard when I did that. He actually thought he left it somewhere and when he looked and it wasn't there, he asked me if I saw it. Hahaha. :)
9. Mag pretend na galit sa friend mo?
- Yeah, I can do that. Especially when I'm not in the mood.
10. Mamutok ng baril?
- Haven't tried it yet, but I think I can.

BINALAK mo na bang?
1. Makipag live in sa bf/gf ng best friend mo?
- Yikes. I haven't considered that in my entire life.
2. Makipag date sa crush ng bestfriend mo?
- Um, hindi.
3. Mang agaw ng bf/gf ng may bf/gf?
- Sabi nila I can do it daw. But I don't think I can. Kahit na mukha akong maldita, hindi ako ganun kasama.
4. Magtulak ng drugs?
- I wouldn't ever do that.
5.Mag utos ng tao para pumatay?
- Hindi ko kaya to.
6. Magpanggap na patay ka na?
- Parang mahirap no. Mabubuking lang ako.
7. Mangolekta ng limos sa kalsada?
- Hindi ko kaya to.
8. Magpanggap na mahal mo ang isang taokahit hndi?
- Yeah, I can and I actually did that na. Mean?
9. Maglagay ng patay na ipis sa upuan ngkaaway mo?
- Hmm..pwede. :)
10. Magpadala ng death threat?
- Sure why not?

Bilangin mo ung yes mong sagot then ilagay mosa title ng message na ito, kapag 15pataas ung yes mo, WELCOME TO THE CLUB ng mga taong malalakas magtrip!!!
15+ - Hayop ka, lahat nalang ng trip sa buhay ginawa mo na.. ewan ko ba, siguro meron pa jangmas grabe na ginawa mo!! YOU'RE IN!!!
14 to 11 - malapit lapit ka na... konting lakas nalang ng loob!! YOU'RE OUT!
10 - 7 - moody kang tao. wala lang. basta maisipan mo yun na..
6 - below - BORING KANG KASAMA...

January 19, 2005

2005-01-18T22:57:00.000+08:00

Here's my schedule for tomorrow:

08:30 - 09:30 Hi166 class
09:30 - 10:30 Run some stuff for org (and get some break if i could)
10:30 - 11:30 Ph104 class (and get transcript afterwards)
11:30 - 12:30 Meet Ninz, Sherwin, and Merryl for some Alumni Dept matters
12:30 - 01:30 Meet Ninz for Alumni Dept Documentation Requirements (yes, rocky, we're starting it tomorrow only)
01:30 - 02:30 Ec142 class
02:30 - 03:30 College Guidance Interview (and meet Ma'am Grace if there's still time left)
03:30 - 04:30 Th151 class
04:30 - 06:00 Alumni Dept. Meeting (to be facilitated by Sherwin; buti na lang, that's one less worry for me)
06:00 - 08:00 ASPAC Scholarship Meeting
08:00 - 12:00 Meet Ninz to work on Alumni Dept Doc Requirements (no sleep for both Ninz and me probably)

Yeah, it looks like it's so full. Actually, it is FULL. God, help me cope up with tomorrow. I pray that I will be able to accomplish what is set and get some rest as well, even if it's just 5 mins ever hour. Also, I do hope there will be some spare time from the Guidance Interview so that I could meet Ma'am Grace (again, to talk about some Alumni matters).

Anyhow, I think I'd be able to survive tomorrow. Thank God for a very lax schedule every Thursday.

another survey

2005-01-17T22:27:00.000+08:00

[What is your favorite ]
1. gum: anything that is strawberry flavored. I'm a sucker for strawberry!
2. drinks: water, iced tea, coffee, and coffee jelly frap ng starbucks (my fave!)
3. color: pink, pink, and pink!
4. number: 7
5. thing to do all day: sleep or read
6. late-night activity: read or surf the net
7. cartoon character: hmm....i don't have a fave..

[ When was the last time you ]
8. cried: last saturday, when we watched Raise Your Voice.
9. laughed: I think just today.
10. hugged someone: yesterday.
11. kissed someone n d lips: intriga to ah...
12. felt depressed: depressed? over the weekend.
13. felt overworked: over the weekend
14. lied: lied? I don't remember anymore. medyo matagal na ata.

[ What was the last ]
15. words you said: "ano na nangyayari" (sa lovers in paris?)
16. food you ate: kao pad (thai bagoong rice) sa World Topps
17. song you listened to: ung kay sarah geronimo. "how could you go and leave me..." ung isang line, i'm not sure of the title e.
18. thing you drank: C2 lemon flavored green tea. ang sarap!
19. place you went to: Write Place, right after we ate dinner and just before we went back to the dorm.
20. movie you saw: Raise Your Voice
21. movie you rented: Kill Bill 2

[ Who was the last person you ]
22. hugged: C Ace!
23. cried for: cried for? C Hillary Duff sa Raise Your Voice
24. kissed : C ace din!
25. danced with: danced with? can't recall.
26. shared a secret with: junie
27. had a sleepover with: ninz, kate, jd, and ian for DevEco (or is that a sleepover? wala atang tulugan un e. so d pwedeng sleep over ang tawag dun)
28. called: Rhea Austria (schoolmate and batchmate ko. something for Aegis, the yearbook)
29. went to a movie with: junie, ate may, kuya mike
30. saw: c junie. she's just in the other room.
31. were angry with: someone i don't wanna name nor describe. baka may makabasa at sabihin sa kanya e.
32. couldn't take your eyes off: couldn't take my eyes off? i don't remember...

[ Have you ever ]
34. danced in the rain: not yet e. I've walked under the rain though, does that count?
35. kissed someone: yeah.
36. done drugs: not yet. and i don't think i'd ever do that.
37. drank alcohol: yeah, i tried already.
38. partied 'til the sun came up? not yet.
39. gone too far on a dare: too far on a dare? well, i do what is required, but nothing more than that.
40. taken a survey quite like this before: yeah, i already did a few times before. it's relaxing.

[ My life ]
41. name: pia richelle uy lee leong
42. birthday: august 10 1984
43. relationship status: i'm single! and by choice.
44. nationality: Filipino
45. occupation: Graduating Senior and Tutor
46. i'm feeling: stressed, happy, sad, frustrated.
47. i'm listening to: the background music of Lovers in Paris. ang lakas kasi ng TV ni junie e. kahit nasa kabilang room cya, I can still hear the TV.
48. i'm doing: this survey.
49. i'm craving: pizza, particularly Yellow Cab. It's been awhile since I last ate a slice of it. I just wanna taste it again.
50. i'm thinking of: my life after graduation.

[ Love ]
52. love?: is overrated
53. inlove: i'm not at the moment
54. My current love: God, my family, and a few friends
55. best love song: best love song? can't think of any right now.
56. is it possible to be in love w/ more than 1 person? no, because love is a commitment and you can't commit to more than one person at a time.
57. when love hurts: it's ok.
58. is there such thing as love @ first sight: i don't think so.
59. first impression counts : yeah, it does.

[ Attraction ]
60. turn ons: matalino, decent, clean
61. turn offs: barumbado
62. do your parents' opinion on your gf/bf matter to you?: of course
63. what is the sweetest thing a guy/girl can do for you?: hmm...
64. where do you go to meet people: in school
65. are you the type of person to HOLLA and ask for numbers?: nope.
66. dog or cat: cat forever
67. sunshine or rain: sunshine. ang hirap pag umuulan e.
68. hugs or kisses: hugs.
69. summer or winter: summer.
70. playstation or nintendo: neither.
71. car or motorcycle: car na lang cguro if given the choice
72. house party or club: house party.
73. sing or dance: i like singing better.

So True

2005-01-14T21:37:00.000+08:00

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Busy

While a relationship sounds nice, you're strapped for time
Whether you're legitimately busy or just making excuses...
... You don't give men enough of your time.
As nice as "instant love" would be, there's just no such thing.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Quizzes

2005-01-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

Toxic by Britney Spears

"It's getting late

To give you up

I took a sip

From my devil cup

SlowlyIt's taking over me "

Ah, what's a year without breaking a few hearts?

Literally.

What 2004 Hit Song Are You?

You Are the Girl Next Door!

You're caring, warm, and the girl that nice guys want to marry.Uncomplicated and simple, you've got an easy going attitude guys love.But this doesn't mean you're dull - far from it!You're a great conversationalist, and you're an expert at living the good life.

What Kind of Girl Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

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You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy
You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on
You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time.
Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need varity!
Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extrovert or Introvert? Take This Quiz :-)

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You Are a Peppermint Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new.
However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like.
You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation.
You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind Of Coffee Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

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33 things about myself

2005-01-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?--> leo (but i don't really believe in such things, so there's no use in knowing.

2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?--> single (and it's by CHOICE)

3. IF TAKEN, BY WHO?--> God

4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERIOUSLY HURTBY THE PERSON YOU LOVE/LOVED?--> oh yes. Sobra.

5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED SUiCiDAL?--> I'd never know.

6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?--> suicide? maybe, but just physically.

7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?--> classic music

8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?--> cyempre cute and smart no.

9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR BF/GF?--> this is NOT APPLICABLE

10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:--> my mom and from org people

11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE GENDER? WHO?--> I had several, but as of the moment, I don't have one.

12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?--> Sleep, read, and surf the net.

13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?--> most of the time I'm cheerful. :)

14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE--> an enjoying one.

15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY iS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THiNK?--> no, I never wondered and I don't really give a damn. there are some things that you take as they are - without questions - and this is one of them.

16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?--> yes.

17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN? WITH LOVE???--> I don't know, but I swore to myself I won't.

18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?--> yeah, but I eventually got over it.

19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?--> I haven't been into such a situation yet. I'll tell you when I experience it.

20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT YOU'RE FEELING NOW--> Bored and tired because of the super hectic day and also a stressful weekend ahead of me.

21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?--> sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.

22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?--> never have I done this intentionally.

23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?--> not ever.

24. MOTTO iN LiFE.--> I can do all things through Christ.

25. HAVE YOU EVER DOUBTED THAT SOMETiMES?--> before I did already.

26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS ABOUT A FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?--> I think this is very much normal. Oh, and my answer is yes.

27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iFNO, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?--> what did i do about it? could we just junk this to history and consider it a lesson learned?

28. ArE FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN YOUR LiFe?--> no. but i don't consider them insignificant either.

29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?--> sounds? maybe hum or something like that. movements naman, the natural tossing and turning probably.

30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?--> sometimes. i'm too stubborn.

31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?--> i don't get the luxury of sleep nowadays, but i usually sleep for around 6 hours a day.

32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?--> that's okay with me, i guess. i don't have much choice anyway.

33 LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?--> of course not.

NOTE: PLEASE KEEP THE TiTLE OF THiSSURVEY "33 THiNGS ABOUT ME."

prayer

2005-01-12T13:38:00.000+08:00

I need a break from all of these. God help me.

Something about me.

2005-01-07T23:30:00.000+08:00

What do you currently wear?
Tops: I don't have prefer a brand over another. What matters for me is the material and the style of the tops that I use.
Pants: Again, no preference for specific brands. Most of my pants though are not maong. Besides, I have more skirts than pants.
Belts: I have two from SM. One is in white, and the other is pink.
Underwear: Soen and Sorella.
Boxer shorts: I don't have one.
Jacket: Jacket...I have one from Kamiseta, one from divisoria, one from my mom, and the other one i don't know na. hahaha
Cap: I have one that my cousin gave me.
Sunglasses: I don't have one at the moment. Been planning to buy one but never got around to doing so.
Socks: SM cya, the colorful ones.
Shoes: Again, I don't have a specific brand that I prefer. Basta okay ung quality and the style suits me.
Watch: I forgot the name that my mom bought for me. The other one Rosellen gave me.
Jewelries: I have several. I can't enumerate them all...

What do you use?
Soap: Johnson's Baby Milk Bath
Shampoo: Pantene Hair Fall
Hair Gel: I don't use anything for my hair except shampoo, conditioner, and hot oil cream.
Perfume/Cologne: Capture
Toothpaste: Colgate forever!
Facial: Pond's

Accessories currently with you:
Cellphone: Nokia 6610
MP3 player: My pc. It contains more than 1000+ songs. I haven't cleaned it up though. I'll get to that when school's over.
Wallet: I don't know the name I'm using, it was given to me by my aunt when I was in high school first year.
Handkerchief: I bought them from divisoria, I think it was for 10 bucks each.
Comb/brush: I have a brush from Anonymous, the white one.
Bag: There are too many to mention. Most of them are shoulder bags, I have a few back packs though. Oh, and I have a duffel bag for travel.

Your lasts as of today:
Car that you rode: I didn't ride a car today.
Other transportation you had: Tricycle lang from dorm to school, then from dorm to Kenny and back.
Food: roasted chicken at Kenny's plus buttered garlic mushroom and strawberry muffin.
Drink: Iced Tea at Kenny's. I like the iced tea there.
Computer you are using now: Our PC since third year high school. It has been upgraded several times though. I'm just not aware of the specs.
Camera you used: None. I didn't use any for the day.

Your private space:
Stuff toys around: I have the Ruff that Michelle Topacio gave me during the Aegis EdBoard Kris Kringle. It's so pink! I like it :) (Thanks Mich!)
Beddings: Color orange with flowers all over. It's cute, even though it's not pink.
Lamp: Omni, color green. I've had it since first year college. I've changed the light several times already.
Aircon/Fan: Fukuda, color black. It's been with me since first year college. As usual, my mom was the one who bought it for me :D
TV: I don't have a TV here sa dorm, but our TV sa house is a flat screen JVC.
VCR/DVD: My PC CDROM is enough for me to watch VCD.

Are you using something that has your name on? With my name on it? My stuff that has name stickers on them. Aside from that, wala na.

Judge yourself, are you brand-conscious? Nope. I never was, and I never will be.

loaded

2005-01-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yes, I am loaded. Loaded with school work - both academic and extra-curricular. There are a lot of things to be done. There are a lot of responsibilities that have to be attended to. This is how my 2005 started off.

I started off 2005 with school work. How boring.

January 3: started doing my second paper for Father David in Moral Philosophy. I really hated doing it. It was about Machiavelli and Public Greatness. I started around 12 mn and stopped by 5 am. By this time I only had a little over 3 pages done. I didn't have the motivation to write the paper; I still was not that much pressured that time.

January 4: woke up around 1pm already. Did some stuff 'til around 4pm, then I resumed writing my paper. I needed to write at least 7 pages - not 6 pages and a few lines. This would not suffice for Father David. When he says 7 pages, it has to be the full 7 pages, no space left for another line.
By the way, here's the format of the paper:
Font: Courier New
Font Size: 10
Spacing: 1.5
Margins: 1" on all sides.
Anyhow, by 7pm, I was able to fill up the whole 7 pages that was needed, but I still hadn't concluded by then. With the conclusion, I reached some 7 and 1/3 pages. I printed the paper around 9pm, after some more proofreading to make sure he wouldn't have anything to critique on about my grammar or spelling.

January 5: went through school, going to classes and listening to boring lectures. I also went around offices to do my thing for the orgs.

January 6: did some paper work and some running about for orgs. After that, I went back to the dorm. At the dorm, I called up companies (again, org work). Slept for less than an hour, then went to tutoring. Now, it's 11:23 pm and I'm reading the Social Contract by Jean-Jacques Rousseau for recitation in Father David's class tomorrow. I'm sleepy, yet I have to read at least half of this.

Anyway, that's it for now. I'll continue reading Rousseau for the meantime. I hope I'll be able to sleep by 2am.

done.

2004-12-17T14:58:00.000+08:00

Yes, it's finally done. Let's not include the make-up class for Father David's Moral Philo tomorrow.

I was freaking out last night with the many things that I had to go through today. First of all, history exam was scheduled at 8:30. Philo recitation for Father David at 9:30 is up next. Lastly, Financial Eco exam just this 1:30.

History: I had several pages of notes to ingest and memorize.

Philosophy: Three readings, with an average of 20 pages each, to be read for the recitation.

Financial Economics: 22 thesis statements to prepare for. Out of these 22, only 2 were taken. Take note: these thesis statements have to be explained INTUITIVELY, MATHEMATICALLY, and GRAPHICALLY.

They're finally done and over with. I just have to wait for the results of the exam, which would probably be released on January 5, when classes resumes after the Christmas break.

Things to prepare for and go through for the rest of the day:
1. Theo151 class under Rosana (sooo boring). I wish I could cut that subject, but I'll be here in school til 6pm at the very least. I'd better attend that and save the cut for a later date.
2. Aegis Editorial Board Plenary meeting. I'm sure this wouldn't start on time (4:30). I also think that the meeting would extend and they'll be needing me for food afterwards. (I handle the money and so they need me to finance the food.)
3. MEA General Assembly Party 2 at Valle Verde 2. This will start 7:30pm. If I'm lucky, I could take a power nap before leaving for the party.

*sigh* There are a few more things left to do. I'm so tired already. All I want to do is lie down and sleep for the rest of the day. However, duty calls and I have to attend each and every one of them.

Oh well...

Friendship of the Year

2004-12-15T23:45:00.000+08:00

There's this particular dormmate that I've gotten close to this past year. I met her last year, but she striked me as snobbish and at first she didn't greet me nor acknowledge my presence at the very least, so I didn't take any initiative in getting to know her. The year passed and our friendship improved somehow - we were then on speaking terms, talking when the need arised. We also got to tell each other experiences that we've had. But we weren't really as close as two friends ought to be.

This year, however, things took a different turn. A few days before classes started last semester, we found out that we had the same Theo141 class. This started a new kind of friendship between the two of us. We went to Theo class together, which was our first class every MWFs. As the semester progressed, we got to go out several times and our friendship deepened. We go with each other to eat out, buy groceries together, and shop as well. When we're together, there's not a time that we're quiet. We're either joking loudly, or mocking each other jokingly, deceiving people into thinking that we were really quarreling with each other.

Last Saturday, I wasn't entirely sure what to give her as a Christmas present. I knew though that I would be giving her a book - we're both book lovers and we are avid collectors of novels. I had an idea though that she likes the Mitch Albom book The Five People You Meet in Heaven. When I was already at Powerbooks, holding the said title, I was thinking of getting her another book - Paolo Coelho's By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept. Anyway, I wasn't really sure whether she read both already and so I decided to buy just the first book. In case she has read it already, I'd just take it for myself and buy her another one.

Today, before the dorm Christmas Party started, we gave each other gifts. When we were both opening our presents for each other, we had this notion that we were giving each other the same gift. When the package was unwrapped, I saw two books inside. Guess what? The first one is the same book I gave her. The second one is the Paolo Coelho book I was thinking of getting her.

Yeah, we had the same thoughts. In a span of less than a year, I can say that we have developed a friendship that I never thought we would. Had she not been my classmate in Theo last sem, I know my last year's stay here at the dorm would not be as memorable. I had no one that I was very close with, except for her. I also know that I would not get too close with the other dormers.

Oh, and there's one more thing. When I read the small card that she gave me, along with the presents, I felt like I was reading my own card for her. Sure, the way it was written was different from the one I gave her, the length was shorter, but the thoughts were the same. How identical could two presents get? Of course we did not talk about it to each other. We both wanted our presents for each other a surprise. Somehow, we think along the same wavelength. She has her own thoughts and my thoughts mirror her own.

All I could say is that it is such a sweet thing to find that such a similarity could exist between two people whose friendship was sort of forged. The friendship was not really unwanted, but it wasn't planned either. Anyhow, had I been given the chance to start the year over again, I'm certain that I would not change anything with it. I like it the way it progressed. I also like the way things come together and mesh to form such a beautiful picture.

Dev Eco...

2004-12-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

I can testify that Venida (Advent, as translated) is very kuripot when it comes to grades. We submitted the research paper just this Monday and he returned it, already graded, just today. Of all the groups that submitted, only one got a C. Guess what the rest got? I wish I could say that it's a B, or better yet an A. Nah... wishful thinking won't change our grade. We all got a D! Yeah, that's what we get for not sleeping at all for that paper. That's how Venida returns our hardwork.

They say that he curves grades even though he gives very low individual grades. Anyway, that better be true. I don't wanna get a D from him for the whole Dev Eco, certainly.

vacation na....next week

2004-12-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

*sigh*... I'm counting the days til Christmas vacation. I really am looking forward to it, what with the school load that I've been burdened with for the past few days and will still be bugged with the next few days til actual vacation comes. Here are the hurdles that had to be overcome before tasting the much-awited rest.

First hurdle - Dev Eco long test last Thursday (December 9). There were only 6 thesis statements to study, but they were very hard. I spent the whole day December 8 studying for that exam. I even cut my first class the next day just to study for that. Anyhow, the class average for that exam is 1.5 (this is Ateneo grade, with 4 being the highest, 0 the lowest), with standard deviation of 0.6. Well, I got 2, 2, and 1 for questions 1, 2, and 3 respectively. So far, the highest I've heard got 2, 2, and 2.5. I don't know how I fared. There were some who got 1, 1, 0...

Second hurdle - Dev Eco research paper due just the Monday that has passed (that's December 13). First off, Kate and I woke up early Saturday and Sunday morning just to have something done for the paper. Saturday, we went to Ortigas to research some data in World Bank. We split when we were done. Anyway, the rest of Saturday was spent shopping with Junie and her sis. Sunday, we were up since 9am, discussing the flaws in the measure that we were using (for comparing income inequality). Anyhow, there was Christmas mass in the evening. We were all required (in our group) coz we're officers in MEA. Add to that the fact that Ninz and I had to offer the canned goods. Anyway, after the mass, we went straight to JD's house, stopping by my dorm to pick up my pc - we used it to type the paper. We never got to sleep (except for an hour, the max). We submitted the paper 11:30, an hour later than deadline. Venida said that it was Fine, Fine, just Fine (take note, stress in the "F").

Third hurdle (about to come) - Eco 142 (that's financial eco under Dr. Dumlao) long test on Friday. There are 26 thesis questions to prepare for... Of those 26, only 2 are to be picked for the exam. I really have to prepare for this so that come 2nd exam, I won't have to study much.

Fourth hurdle (about to come also) - History exam (in Filipino, take note) same day as the Ec142 exam. Well, I really have to prepare for this. Good thing I don't have tutor sessions on Thusday. That means I can study for both exams (cram is the appropriate word, i think). Try as I may and hope as I wish to study in advance, I know that simply is not possible. Besides, I work better under pressure.
Fifth hurdle (about to come also) - Father David make-up class on Saturday. What an end to 2004 and what a way to start the Christmas break. There's no explanation for this. Father David says it all.

Sixth hurdle (come Christmas break pa) - paper due on Philo first day of class in January. I bet I'd cram that again, all the while thinking what to do about it during the break. I know I won't be able to enjoy the break (my last one) as I wish I could. How good Father David is in spoiling breaks. He thinks that as students, we don't deserve to cut, as we haven't contributed anything to society as yet. I think that goes the same for enjoying Christmas breaks.

And I thought Christmas is the season for giving, sharing, and loving.

loooong vacation...supposedly

2004-12-05T12:54:00.000+08:00

Last week was a blast. Monday was a holiday - no classes, of course! Tuesday and Wednesday were regular class days, but the momentum wasn't there, so it didn't really feel like we had class. Thursday - no classes due to the typhoon. I couldn't really care much coz I only had three hours of class every TTh. In fact, I would very much like to have classes during those days, if I were to choose between MWF or TTh. Anyway, Friday was another day break from school. I very much enjoyed the vacation. Though I searched the net for information for our research paper the whole day Thursday, I wasn't pressured at all so I was relaxed. I spent my Friday morning arranging my stuff - throwing away unnecessary stuff and stacking the others in proper order. I went home Friday afternoon, ready to enjoy the weekend ahead of me AT HOME.

8pm, at home, Kate suddenly sent me an SMS asking me if the make-up class for Father David's Moral Philo class was still on schedule the next day. It was only then that I remembered all about it. I even had it in my planner, but I forgot to check it out! Anyway, thanks Kate for saving my ass. I would have been forced to write a 2 and a half paged paper for Father David. I don't like cutting his class and writing him a paper - it might risk me receiving the humiliation he would give me once he gets to read my paper.

Anyway, I'm here at the dorm once again. I went to the make-up class, but I decided to stay behind here and not go home anymore because I would have more useful things to do here than at home. Besides, it's too tiring to travel for an hour; not to mention the transportation costs attached to it.

draining

2004-11-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

Yeah, that's what I'd call this semester. It is not intellectually draining, but physically. I feel as if I live in school already! Imagine, I stay there from 8:30 to 4:30 every Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays! Sometimes, when there are meetings, I stay til 6:00pm! Then I go straight to my tutee's house. I drop by my dorm just to drop off and pick up some stuff. Aside from that, I get no rest at all.

There's not much to tell about my school days as of yet. Not much is happening, just the usual stuff, nothing interesting enough to take note of.

Anyway, I'm still adjusting to my very tiring schedule. I haven't had such a schedule since my freshman year, that's why it's such a new thing for me nowadays. I'm still used to the half day classes I've had since my junior year.

So much for my last semester.

second week of second sem

2004-11-10T22:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah, tis the last semester of my college life already. I can't believe I've come this far. It seems as though I just stepped into college, wondering where the buidings are, and now my college life is about to end. Time has passed by so fast. It really has. It doesn't take too long for one semester to progress into the next. For all you know, the semester has just started, then in a blink of an eye, it's about to end already.

Anyhow, I was expecting that my load for this semester would somehow be light. I only have one major subject - Development Economics. I have Theology 151 under Dr. Rosana, Philosophy 104 under Fr. David, and History 166 under Dr. Gealogo. Honestly, I like all of them. So at first it doesn't seem as if my semester would be hard, considering that I like the teachers. Anyhow, I enlisted in Financial Economics, coz Dumlao's the teacher. I figured out that I would be able to understand the lesson coz he's the one teaching. For my major elective, I took up Investment Management under Lichauco.

Dr. Rosana's okay, but the discussion's a bit boring. I don't sleep in her class though. I sometimes yawn a little, but that's all there is to that. It's bearable, in other words.

Fr. David... I've heard quite a lot about him, considering that I have a friend in the Professional Schools who's taken him up already for another Philosophy subject. She told me that he gives out A's and B+'s generously. Now, that's not bad. In fact, I like that more than anything else... In class, Fr. D comes in five to ten minutes after the bell has rung. He starts discussion thirty minutes after the bell rings. In total, he rants on about the assigned reading for roughly twenty minutes. As for the readings, he has already given us two hundred pages of a particular book - Nicomachean Ethics. I must admit, the reading's quite long, but it's not really a required thing. He doesn't give graded recitations, but he does shout at students who don't know what they're talking about...

Dr. Gealogo's a different story. As of the meantime, he has not shown up in class yet, aside from the first day of class. He's outside the country, or so his teaching assistant (TA) tells us. His TA, on the other hand, doesn't like to discuss much. If he were given the chance to dismiss the class early, I'm sure he would. So History 166 as of the meantime is not much of a burden.

Dr. Dumlao, the financial economics teacher, is good. I've already had him for International Finance and I actually appreciated the subject when he taught it last year. He's still good, not to mention good looking too. Haha.

Investment Management is also nice. The teacher, Lichauco, is a cool guy. He doesn't believe in teaching us a book. He wants to impart something about what's happening in the real world out there, particularly in the stock market, coz that's what the subject matter's all about. Anyhow, I like him. I think this class is gonna be great!

Lastly, Development Economics under Venida (I'm not sure whether he's a Dr. or just an MA graduate of Eco). His class is the fast track one. This means that we end earlier than the semester (first week of January, to be precise). This also means that we get to see him everyday. For one thing, I didn't have a choice in the subject. This was the only class that was available to me during registration, what with my very beautiful number - 430. Also, I liked the schedule more than the other one. The other class is scheduled every TTH, 3:00 - 4:30 pm. Anyway, seeing a teacher for everyday of the semester is not at all nice. What's worse is that Venida's not really that nice at all. In fact, there are quite a few students in our class who detest him already. He's gay, by the way. Let's just not comment about his personality. I'll leave it at that. Just ask me about the happenings in class; I'll be more than glad to tell you about it.

news

2004-11-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

I already have Princess Diaries Volume IV and a half: Project Princess. Yey! :)

Just waiting for Volume 6...

Princess Diaries VI and Nicholas Sparks

2004-11-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

After I heard that Princess Diaries IV (Princess in Waiting) is available in National Bookstore Biñan, I had the maid go buy a copy of it. (I just got here in Biñan that time yet I already had my outfit washed and I didn't have anything else to wear to go out so I simply wrote down the name of the book and had her buy it for me.) She came back, an hour later, holding a copy of the book and the news that Book VI was available as well. I wanted her to go back, but I wasn't brutal enough to make her go. I decided to let the book wait, until the next day, when I would be prepared enough. I finished reading the book, it was okay, but it left me hanging. I really wanted to grab hold of a copy of the sixth book, but I waited until it was 3pm the next day (yesterday, October 31).

When I got to National Bookstore, I immediately went to the Children's Books section and my eyes wandered to the Princess Diaries books displayed. I looked and looked, but to my dismay, Book six was nowhere to be found. When I asked the saleslady about it, she told me that the ones in display are the only ones available. Not giving up too easily, I tried to look again, hoping that even just one copy of the book were available. I gava up, after five minutes of the hopeless search.

Instead of going home right after, I decided to look around for a while. I saw some Nicholas Sparks books on the shelves. Then I thought, "Now's the best time to collect his books. I may have liked him since fourth year high school, when I read The Notebook, I haven't necessarily bought any book of his. (I don't know where my copy of The Notebook is, but I sure hope it's just somewhere around the house.) Anyway, I found myself debating how many books of his I should buy. I immediately had my eye on The Guardian and I was sure that I would buy it.

After five minutes, I went to the counter with only one book in hand. That book, I decided, would be the first book from the Nicholas Sparks collection that I would buy. The others would come after I have completed the Princess Diaries collection or when I still could not find copies of the others and I could spare money to buy a book.

For the meantime, I'm quite satisfied with the books that I have. I do hope I find Book IV and a half (I'm not kidding, I've seen it through the internet) and Book VI (there's no Book VII just yet).

Princess in Waiting

2004-10-27T17:27:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I still haven't bought the volume four book of The Princess Diaries. I went ahead and finished reading the fifth volume. It was nice, but I'm sure the movie would be better. Anyway, when I browsed the end of the book, I saw that there is another volume, volume six. In fact, after volume four comes volume four and a half. Funny, I didn't know there was such a thing as volume four and a half... Now, I wonder, how many books are there in the The Princess Diaries series? So far this has been the most number of novels that I have seen in a series.

The Princess Diaries

2004-10-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

The Princess Diaries (Volume I): Cover in Fuschia
I saw this book on display at National Bookstore Katipunan and I hurriedly grabbed it and bought it - without hesitation - because I really liked the movie. When I got the chance to open it, I started reading it. At first I really had my hopes up that it is a really good book, good at least. The farther I went, the more disappointed I became. It wasn't as I expected it to be. It's totally different from the movie. (Let me not go into the details because I might spoil the fun of reading it.) They say that the book is usually better than the movie counterpart - and i believed so too until I came across this book. The movie is way better than the book itself. (If you wanna know why, go see for yourself - read the book)

Princess in the Spotlight (The Princess Diaries Volume II): Cover in Baby Blue
Junie, my dormmate, got home one day with a copy of this book. Without nothing much left to do - nothing she liked, that is - she thought of buying the book since it was on sale anyway. She got to read the first book (thanks to me). I finished the book, again feeling disappointed with the storyline and how the movie is again better than the book. My thoughts after reading the book were: 1. the movie will always be better than the book (in this case) and 2. there is always an exception to the rule. However, these thoughts and my experience of reading volumes 1 and 2 didn't stop me from wanting to buy the third book.

Princess in Love (The Princess Diaries Volume III): Cover in Reddish Pink - so nice!
Okay, so I wasn't really obsessed with buying the third book. I just happened to pass by National Katipunan again, intending to buy something else, when I thought of looking at the Children's Books section to check whether the third book is available already. Imagine my joy when I found book three and book five displayed among the shelves (my credit card, however, is not amenable to this). One thought that crossed my mind during that time was that there were no volume four books around. Well, I said, it was okay; I'll just buy whatever's here and wait 'til I have book four before I read book five.
While reading book three, towards the end of it I was already screaming! Yeah, I was screaming. :) My dormmate thought I'd gone nuts. You ask why? Coz what I was waiting for to happen since books 1 and 2 didn't happen until book three! That's why. Imagine my excitement for what's to happen in, and my frustration for not having, book four. Oh, yeah, I must say, book three is nice!

Princess in Waiting (The Princess Diaries Volume IV): Color in Violet
All I can say about this is that I am excited to have a copy of book four. I'm now thinking of whether I will go to National Cubao tomorrow and try my luck. Well, I'm not yet decided, but I might go there. We'll see... If I have the book four by tomorrow, my Princess Diaries collection would soon be complete!

Princess in Pink (The Princess Diaries Volume V): Color in Baby Pink
I haven't read it yet, obviously. I'm still debating whether or not I will read it now. For one thing, the title has "pink" in it. Haha. The cover's also in baby pink. I like it. :p I'll comment more once I've read this and the previous volume. For the meantime, try to get hold of a copy and read away. Then tell me whether we share the same thoughts.

Am I Money Savvy?

2004-10-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

I took the "Are You Money Savvy" test in www.femalenetwork.com and here's the result:

You're a Money Marvel! No wonder you're called a marvel by your friends. There are times when you seem to be on the brink of bankruptcy but you still manage to pull through. You're learning how to handle your money well but you somtimes make a few mistakes. But never fear. You are on the path of becoming a money-wiser person.

The Two-Peso Tip: Although you may often succumb to impulsive spending, always be aware of what you want and need (these two are very different!), and where your money is going. Make it easy on yourself by saving at least P500 a month. Plus, avoid temples of temptation—like shoe stores or clothing stores whose merchandise simply scream "Buy me!" Trust me, it'll go a long way.

It's funny how the test was able to capture the "me" when it comes to cash. Of all the tests in magazines and websites that I took, this is the one that i think is the most credible.

snapshot of me

2004-10-22T23:24:00.000+08:00

Message:
1. dO yOu GeT jEaLoUs EaSiLy?
- not really. i think first.
2. wHaT hV u Been DoiN fOr tHe pasT feW daYs?
- sleep, internet, rest.
3.LaSt MoVie thaT u WatCh? wiTh whO?
- shark's tale, with ninz, rocky, mandy, and jd.
4.WhaT u gOnna dO aFteR thiS?
- go to sleep, probably. rather, force myself to sleep. it's quite early for my sleeping time.
5.HaVe u cRieD BefOre?
- i have.
6.SeRioUs iN LOVe BefoRe?
- i was serious, dead serious.
7.wHaT iS tHe 1sT tHiNg thaT coMes tO uR MiNd?
- right now? hmmm.... si ano...
8.FaVe soNg? wHy?
- i don't have a fave song for the meantime. i like a lot of songs, but i have no favorites.
9.wHaT u pLaNNiN tO dO diS weeKeNd?
- stay here in laguna.
10.dO u go cLuBbing? wheRe?
- i don't.
11.Do YoU sMoKe?
- nope, haven't even tried.
12.aNy ppLe iN LoVe wiTh u nOw?
- none
13.dO u pRefeR sMs oR TalkiN oN pHoNe?
- depends really.
14.R u MissiN suM1 nOw?
- i'm not sure if i'm missing someone. he comes to my mind every once in a while though...
15.wHaT aRe YoU dOiNg NoW?
- sitting in front of the pc, typing away my thoughts...
16.wHen iS tHe LaSt tiMe u ReCeiVed any fLoweRs?
- last sem, i think? not on a very good note though. i'd rather that i haven't received it na lang.
17.1 WoRd tO SaY bOuT u?
- maingay
18.NaMe ur gOOd fReNz, aLL!!!
- napakarami naman nun e...
19.wHo u waNa kiSS nOw?
- none
20.iN LoVe wiTh aNy1 nOw?
- nope. in like, maybe.
21.1 peRsoN whO u wiSh tO sPeNd uR LiFe witH?
- "the one"? haven't met that person yet.

touching story

2004-10-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

I can't help but post this story here. I just saw this posted in Friendster.

A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car.
Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautifully wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money, you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy book.
Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and a wonderful family, but realized his father was very old and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day.
Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away and he willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart.
He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible, and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation and the words ... PAID IN FULL.

sembreak day 2

2004-10-19T22:23:00.000+08:00

so far, i've accomplished the following this day:
1. paid the landline bill
2. bought the pumps i wanted since i first saw it on sunday
3. treated my feet to a soak and scrub
4. seen my grades in theo and philo
5. given trisha her cellphone allowance for the months of october and november
6. listed down what i plan to do for the rest of the week while i'm here at the dorm
7. tutored one of my babies (taught two lessons in advance, in fact)

looking at the list above makes me wonder how the rest of my week will be. i've accomplised just 7 things in a span of 12 hours. i'm not used to having so little to do in a day. it's simply just not me to waste so much time doing nothing. i'm so used to running about and doing a lot of things at a time that it bothers me when i find myself looking for something to do at days like these. i can say that it's a luxury to just wait for the time to pass by.
in the next few days, however, i have several things lined up to do. tomorrow, i'll accompany my cousin to Grace, my beloved alma matter. it'll take up 4 hours, i think. i still have to go there (takes about 45 minutes) and then back here again once it's done. the travel time takes up the bulk of the errand. well, it's for a worth cause so i don't really care. after that i'll go to the bookstore and buy some supplies to finish arranging my stuff from last semester. arrange, arrange... then i'll end the day with tutoring.
it seems like this time i'll really take things one day at a time. i have the time to just do nothing and sleep, if i want to. that'll be part of the routine, but i'll have to squeeze in an org stuff or two to help keep me sane.

sembreak rolling - day 2

2004-10-19T11:37:00.000+08:00

random thoughts during the second day of sembreak:
1. had my credit card dues paid already - thanks to my aunt for waiting for my payment so patiently.
2. still have to pay my telephone line - i'll do that in the afternoon.
3. i've seen another pair of pumps that i like - will buy that in the afternoon.
4. i've somehow cleaned up my stuff - i'll buy another box for the books that can not fit in anymore.
5. i have to go check my grades for philo and theo at the dela costa...
6. it's kinda boring
- i have no more books to read
- i do surf the but it's not as entertaining for me as for other people. once i'm done checking my mail, YMing(when there are people i know), checking out friendster for what's new, and reading blogs, i'm outta here.
7. i should start planning what i have to do for the next few days of my stay here at the dorm. i can't just go out and shop til my credit card reaches its credit limit.
8. i should start planning what we have to present at the MEA evaluation seminar.
9. i should start planning for the Aegis project i've been delaying for weeks.
10. i should prepare myself for the Aegis evaluation seminar - now, is there one? i have to confirm that too.

P.S. catch up with some friends.

senior's syndrome

2004-10-13T16:48:00.000+08:00

i think i'm going through the much-dreaded syndrome right now. it didn't take me a whole sem to think of it actually. it wasn't til this week, the finals week, that i have come across the syndrome. people may think that the syndrome i have right now is the one that involves love, but it's not. i'll go about the story from the start.

last year, i started having thoughts of going to law school - ateneo professional schools in particular - and the idea started coming back to me two weeks ago. when i thought of what field i wanted to go into, i was clueless. i still don't know what field of law i would want to delve into. i also don't know if i'd be able to survive law school. i'm actually sure that i would get through law school just fine; that is, if i'm committed into it and i really love the thing.

that's the time that i began thinking of my intentions. do i really want to take up law for law in itself? do i want to study for four more years and live as a student would, still dependent on her parents for the tuition and allowance and pretty much everything? can i take the pressure of it all and go through it just fine? what will happen to me afterwards?

after all the questions that have haunted me with my "wanting" to take up law studies, i realized one thing: i wanted to take up law just so i could once again live apart from my family. this doesn't mean that we have a rift going on between us. it doesn't mean either that i'm mad at them or anything. don't mistake this for something else. well, i can say that we're not that close, but i'm happy with them. actually, i love my family very much. i visit them at times, when i have the time, and i also call them up every once in a while just to have a chat with them.

i love them, but i can't bear the thought of going back to living with them, after four years of taking care of myself (except financially, of course ). i want to move out. it's as simple as that, yet as complicated as it can be. the thing is, i don't know how to break it to them without them thinking that i don't want to be with them. i don't think they'd understand my reasons for wanting to live on my own.

now, the question is, what do i do?!?

nice survey

2004-10-13T02:55:00.001+08:00

1. what is your name? (must not contain: a, c,g, h, s, j, u, r, n)
pi
2. what time is it? (you CANNOT use numbers)
two fifty-four in the morning
3. what school or job do you go to? (you CANNOTuse proper nouns)
to the institution where the pedestrians are not allowed to cross the street in front of a then freuently passed by gate.
4. how are you feeling right now? (must contain atleast 6 letters)
overwhelmed with the polsci coverage for the exam half a day later.
5. how old are you? (cannot be in terms of years)
first year wherein not a teenager anymore

PREFERENCES/FAVORITES
1. where's the perfect vacation place? (cannot bein the philippines)
paris
2. favorite musical artist? (must be outdated)
lea salonga - i insist she's outdated
3. favorite book? (must contain at least 400pages)
the bible
4. favorite junkfood? (must come in at least 3flavors)
none
5. favorite spice (you must also state atleast 3 food/drink items in which the spice isused)
hot sauce - pizza, spaghetti, and shakeys' chicken
6. favorite country? (you must be able toname the capital and a natural landmark)
Country: Philippines Capital: Manila Landmark: Banaue Rice Terraces
7. favorite food? (must be filipino food):
nilagang baka

OTHERS:
1. who is/are your best friend[s]? (must bethe full name[s])
i don't have a best friend for the meantime
2. who is a celebrity you wish to be your friend?(you must state the month and day of his/her birthday)
celebrity? none. kahit sino ok lang.
3. name a person who irritates you (you must alsostate his/her friend[s])
secret.
4. adjective most used to describe YOU (must notcontain the letters: j, v, g, z, k, x, q, o, p)
friendly
5. phrase you use often (this must be an originalphrase and not copied from a movie, book, oranother person):
"hay nako..."
6. phrase you hear often (must have been said by a relative)
"ay yah!" - the chinese way of saying it.

looking forward

2004-10-12T02:07:00.000+08:00

yeah, it really sucks. after spending the night editing a paper, with only 1.5 hours of sleep, it makes me wish it were Saturday afternoon already. with the LS paper submission and Theo orals done, there are still a few more to go, three to be exact. the first one's Polsci, which is on Wednesday. the next one's the POM long test due on Friday, and the last's the LS defense on Saturday (the end of the sem). after all that, two weeks of sembreak left to enjoy.

now, how would i spend my sembreak? til now i haven't really finalized my plans yet. i've to tutor my babies during the first week, i think. so that means that i'll be staying here at the dorm for the meantime. that would keep my Monday-Thursday evenings occupied. but what do i do the rest of the time? maybe i could go catch several movies with junie, my dormmate. if we were to watch a movie for each day, that would be 4 movies that week! let's just hope that there would be nice flicks to see.

after that, maybe i'll just go to laguna, help out with the pharmacy, make use of the unlimited dsl access there, and rest. yeah. that would be quite a vacation for me, i must say. one whole week of resting will do me good.

for the meantime, let's go back and face reality. :(

on the last day before finals week

2004-10-08T11:34:00.000+08:00

soundtrip or movies?
it really depends. first, may money ba? kung meron, e d movies. next, may time ba? kung meron, and may money, movies. third, may kasama ba? kung pwede c junie, may time ako, and may money rin, e d movie. otherwise, not movie. (this reminds me of excel functions. ung "if" function. hehe)

Short hair, long hair?
both. my hair right now is in layered. the shortest one is just below my chin. the longest one is at length with my underarms.

White skin, moreno/a?
they say white. pero umiitim ako as the years go by... nakakatamad kasi magdala ng payong e.

Brown eyes, black eyes?
dark brown, to be specific.

Chicken or pork?:
chicken. :)
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*Cno ka d2?*

Mtngkad o maliit?
i'd like to think i'm matangkad, but reality bites. i'm maliit.

Maingay o thmik?
both. it really depends on the mood i am in. most people actually think i'm always talking. when i shut up even for just a minute, they wonder what's wrong with me. the fact is, i am a loner and i can lock myself up in a room and not talk.

Makulit o mabait?
i'm both. makulit. don't ask. people say so, and i think i am as well. mabait din ako. why? coz i say so.

Singer "o" dancer?
both, but i'm more of a singer.

Naging totoo ka ba sa pagsagot?
of course! why should i lie?

1.FULL NAME
i already wrote this out. just look at my previous entry.

2. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
the click of mouse and tapping of the keyboard.

3.COMPLETE THIS SENTENCE: THE WORLDNEEDS
Cash! sabi nga ni sir Lagua, Cash is King. Joke.

5.WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Chicken cordon bleu ng food for thought. that's my lunch.

6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLORS WOULD YOU BE?
pink! need i say more?

7. WHAT DO YOU DO DURING YOUR CHILL TIME?
read books, surf the net (that means checking email, surfing friendster, and answering surveys such as this one), telebabad, sleep.

8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE
c jacq, this morning (1:00 - 1:30 am)

9. THE FIRST THING YOU THINK ABOUT WHEN YOU SEE THE OPPOSITE SEX?
what should i think of? unless they're a cutie, wala.

10. AUTO OR MANUAL CAR?
i don't know coz i don't drive.

11. FAVORITE DAY s OF THE week?
wednesday

12. FAVORITE PLACE?
my rooom.

13. FAVORITE SPORTS?
volleyball.

14. DO U WEAR CONTACTS?
right now? i don't. but i have contacts that i wear regularly.

15. SIBLINGS
2 younger sis.

16. THE COOLEST WAY I HAVE DONE TO RELEASE PRESSURE?
sleep

17.PEOPLE I HATE MOST
mga nakakainis ang boses, worriers, and braggers.

18. WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT BEING A GIRL/BOY?
being a girl... fun!

19. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY?
Happy na lang.

20. MY BEST FRIEND/s IS/ARE
i don't have a best friend right now.

21. CHOCOLATE OR FLOWER
neither. they're both not lasting.

22. WHEN IM STUCK IN A JAM, I
shut up

23. SMS OR CALL
if it's important, call. otherwise, text.

24. IF YOU COULD TURN BACK TIME, YOU WOULD..
do everything all over again.

25. IN YOUR WALLET, YOU HAVE
money, credit cards, pictures

26. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
monopoly

27. FAVORITE SMELLS?
my perfume

28. WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU THINK OF BEFORE YOU GO TO SLEEP?
what time kaya ako makakatulog?

another destresser

2004-10-08T01:50:00.000+08:00

FACT 1:

Name: Pia Richelle Uy Lee Leong
Birth date: August 10, 1984
Birthplace: Manila (Chinese General Hospital)
Current Location: Loyola Heights
Eye Color: dark brown
Hair Colour: black
Height: 5'2"
Right handed or Left handed: right handed

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FACT 2:

Race: Filipino, Chinese, Spanish
Weakness: books!
Your perfect pizza: perfect? stuffed crust na shakeys pepperoni crunch.

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FACT 3: Your?

Most overused phrase(s): "oh well..."
Thoughts first waking up: "what time is it?"
Best physical feature: nose
Usual bedtime: 2am
Most missed memory: high school days

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FACT 4: Preferences..?

Pepsi or Coke: coke ako
McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King for their burgers
Single or group dates: depends.
Lipton Iced Tea or Nestea tea: Nestea Lite
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate ako!
Cappuccino or Latte: i actually don't know the difference between the two.

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FACT 5: Do you?

Smoke: i do not.
Sing: yes! i LOVE to sing!
Take a shower every day: I take a BATH every day
Have a crush(es): yeah. i have a few crushes at the moment, but they're just crushes; nothing more.
Want to get married: it's ok with me, but at the meantime i have no thoughts of marriage whatsoever.
Believe in yourself: sometimes i do, sometimes i don't.
Get motion sickness: sometimes.
Think you're attractive: i would LIKE to think so.
Think you're a health freak: sometimes? hehehe
Get along with your parents: yeah. i do. :)
Like thunderstorms: hmm.....it really depends. :) if it means there'll be no school, then good!
Play an instrument: i know how, but i don't anymore.

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FACT 6: In the past month, you?

Drank alcohol: no.
Gone on a date: does going to movies and mall with my dormmate count?
Gone to the mall: yeah. sa megamall. we were supposed to buy something for theo. but i ended up buying a pink bag for myself! what a treat. :)
Eaten sushi: yuck
Been on stage: i've been. 10 times, i think? or is it a little more than 10? i don't really remember.
Gone skating: once, with the scouts. it was oh-so-scary!

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FACT 7:

Age you hope to be married: hope to be married? hmm.....not really. the IDEAL age would be 29 - 33.
Number of Children: 2 lang.
Describe your Dream Wedding: haven't really thought of it and i have no plans to think of that for the meantime.
How do you want to die: i wanna die in my sleep - something that's not painful. i don't want a slow death, neither a painful one.

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FACT 8: List the number of:

People you trust with ur life: family, cousins, friends.
cds u own: i don't own any cd, except for the ones that i burn
Tattoos: i don't want tattoos
Things in my past I wanna forget: none. i believe that each and every moment in my life has contributed to who i am now and that's what matters.

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FACT 9: What..?

Music are you listening to now? disney medley by lea salonga.
Time is it now: 2:03 am, according to my pc.
Who are the people you treasure the most: my family, cousins, and friends. :)

slumbook

2004-09-28T01:56:00.000+08:00

Part 1: Basics

1. NICKNAME
pag sa bahay and to family friends as well, it's Richelle or Chelle. sa school naman and work, Pia. :)

2. SEX
female ako!

3. BIRTHDATE
august 10.

4. WHERE DO YOU LIVE
live? in laloma - lechon capital of the philippines.

5. HEIGHT
this is a depressing fact. 5'2" lang e.

6. SHOE SIZE
i think it's 8.

7. FIRST CRUSH
elementary classmate.

8. WHATS YOUR SIGN
i don't actually care, coz i don't believe in such.

9. WHATS THE FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU
depende e. it's either masungit ako or friendly na makulit.

10. HAVE A TATTOO
i don't and i don't plan to have one.

Part 2: Food

1. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING
hmm....i think burger king when it comes to burgers. pero kung fries, mcdo. kaso i don't eat fries na e.

2. COKE OR PEPSI
coke ako, even though i don't drink coke that much.

3. ROOT BEER OR CALI
rootbeer, kahit na hindi rin ako gano umiinom ng rootbeer.

4. TEA OR COFFEE
i'm a coffee addict! the best ung coffee jelly frap ng starbucks!

5. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE
chocolate.

6. CAKE OR PIE
it really depends on the flavor e.

Part 3: Pick one

1. MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER
perfect friend na lang.

2. CATS OR DOGS
cats definitely!

3. 1 PILLOW OR 2
more than that!

5. TOP OR BOTTOM
what kind of question is this?

6. WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL
i actually don't know coz i haven't experienced the three seasons. maybe i should get to try out all of them before i can decide.

7. SKIING OR BOARDING
neither?

8. BIKING OR BLADING
biking! i never could balance myself using blading shoes.

9.ROCK/RAP/R&B/PUNK/ALT/SKA/TECHNO/SWING
R&B.

10. NIGHT OR DAY
now, it really depends. what do i use it for ba? kung sleeping, i'd rather sleep sa day. and i can work better at night (more like past midnight night).

11. VEST OR MITTENS
vest is more applicable, i guess.

12. DRESSED OR UNDRESSED
i'd rather be dressed.

13. BUNK OR WATER BED
bunk bed anytime.

14. MAKE PLANS OR GO ALONG
go along.

15. TRUTH OR DARE
it really depends kung sino kasama mo. kung mga close friends, pwede truth. kung hindi nman, dare na lang.

17. OCEAN OR POOL
pool.

18. SHOWERS OR BATHS
i would like shower kasi hindi mahirap patuyuin ung hair. kaso kung hindi naman nalinis ung hair, the feeling's icky. so i'd rather take a bath.

19. BLIND OR DEAF
blind.

Part 4: Favorites

1. COLORs
Pink, Pink, Pink

2. NUMBER
7

3. SUBJECT
math

4. SHOE BRAND/s
i don't have brand preference.

6. DRINK
water or pineapple juice

7. ANIMAL
cat!

8. HOLIDAY
Christmas.

9. FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE
~

10. BAND
~

11. MOVIE
marami e.

12. PLACE TO CHILL
dorm, eastwood

13. FLOWER
~

14. PERFUME
~

Part 5: Would you?

1. MOVE ANYWHERE
maybe.

2. DYE YOUR HAIR
NO!

3. LIKE TO MEET ONE FAMOUS PERSON?
i don't know e.

4. LIVE WITH ONE PERSON FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE
maybe. pero ok lang sa akin magisa.

5. NAME ONE PERSON YOU LOVE
mom.

6. NAME ONE THING THAT EMBARRASSES YOU
hahaha. secret.

7. DO YOU LIKE SCHOOL
yeah. i have to.

8. DO YOU LIKE TALKING ON THE PHONE
yeah, when i have the time or i'm so stressed.

9. DO YOU HAVE YOUR OWN LINE
yeah. :)

This Sem is HELL

2004-09-22T14:33:00.000+08:00

Ok, so it's not entirely hell, but then, there are a lot of things to do. this is a very miserable sem for me because of the academic workload. it's just 18 units, but i feel like i'm taking up 30 units because of the three major subjects that each have a major project requirement. add to that the pressures of org work and some part-time tutoring. now, i'm not saying that i don't want to have the sidings. actually, when i think about it, i would rather have the sidings than the main course. the sidings here refer to the org work and the tutoring. they're both fun. aside from that, i learn a lot from them. yeah, we do learn from academics but they're mostly theoretical. what i do learn from the sidings that i have are the actual happenings in life. now, am i philosophizing here? of course not. i'm just simply comparing the two aspects in my school life.

now, back to academics alone. see, i have a lot to do this coming days and the next week. here's my sched:
Sept 23 - Philo LT#2 (last na! pero may final orals pa)
Sept 24 - OR LT#3 (last na rin! pero may final paper pa. thanks to JD for taking care of that part. but there's still the defense, which means that i have to study the model that we'll be doing.)
Sept 24 - now, that's not a typo error. i really have to work on our LS paper. i have to do a profile on the crafts (consumers) market of COATS Manila Bay - the company we're using for the three major subjects. talk about hell.
Sept 25 - we have to go back to zambales for our theo report on the immersion. i don't know what time il be back but it's definitely gonna be a long day. how i wish i could relax on the way, but we still have to discuss the report content. it's not rest, definitely. oh well...
Sept 26 - this is a sunday, but i don't know whether i can do something else rather than making my Theo research paper on the injustice in the structures of the academe in the Philippines (this is quite long, and i still haven't read any of the materials that i have. i'm not yet sure whether my data is already complete. i still have to gather data.)
Sept 27 - Theo research paper submission
Sept 29 - reporting on OR3 on AT&T's CAPS (now, don't ask me what that is. just go look for it in google.)
Oct 1 - Submission of OR paper. (is POM included here? i have to check.)

So there. that's my sched for the meantime. i don't know if it won't change. i do hope the workload would not increase!
now, the question is: how do i survive this?!?

a distressing mechanism

2004-09-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

1. what are you doing now?
I'm in the Aegis room, answering this survey that i got from friendster. i'm distressing coz i have a lot of things to do. one for polsci (that's for tomorrow), one for operations research (read the veeerrryyy long case), edit the papers for POM and LS, and then study for theo (coverage toooo loooonnng).

2. what were you doing before this?
I compiled part of the polsci paper due for tomorrow and i also edited it. before that, i met with my groupmates (hi to kenneth, jd, jody, and ninz) for the LS-OR-POM paperS. and before that, i met with my OR groupmates (hi to kate, deeyan, and ninz) for the OR reporting.

3. what are you thinking now?
I'm thinking of what i'll be doing and what i won't be doing later. i'll be finishing everything i can for tomorrow and i won't be sleeping (good thing i don't have an exam tomorrow and all my classes for tomorrow don't have much substantial stuff to ingest.

4. what time is it?
according to MY watch, Ateneo time is 3:47pm.

5. what time did you sleep last night?
exactly 2am. (and i had a 730 class this morning).

6. what did you do last night?
nice question. one: downloaded polsci parts from email. two: chatted with my friends. three: played text twist. now, i didn't know then that there are a lot of things to do for tomorrow. (most of the stuff in my to-do list came up just this afternoon)

7. what did you last say to a friend last night?
"cge na nga. bye na."

8. what attracts you to the opposite sex?
hmm....the attitude plus the presentation

9. what makes you happy?
what makes me happy? now, that's a question that i have to think about.

10. what are you wearing right now?
a yellow shirt and a skirt.

11. what will you do after answering this?
look for something else to do before my 430 class with galura.

12. who was the last person you talked to?
last person i talked to before answering this? barbs magallona. i asked her something while i was editing the polsci paper.

13. what do you want to tell someone but you don't know how to tell him/her?
hmm....wala ako maisip right now e. i think for the moment, wala.

14. when is your birthday?
August 10.

15. when is your bf/gf's birthday?
not applicable.

16. when did you last cry?
march 2003

17. when did you last smile?
just a few minutes ago. :)

18. why did you answer this?
because i have to destress before facing what waits for me.

19. when will you marry?
when will i marry? i don't think i can answer that. IF i would get married, around 29.

20. when did you last receive a gift?
my birthday.

21. when did you last drink alcoholic beverages?
nung batch party (ang saya nun!)

22. who will you vote for president?
president? wala naman elections e.

23. who was the last person you talked w/ yesterday?
si spence

24. who makes you happy?
my family.

25. who is your enemy?
i don't have an enemy.

26. who has the qualities you like in a guy/girl?
not complete e.

27. who do you hate most among your friends?
wala no!

28. who's your closest among the females?
closest? rosellen.

29. who has the cutest smile you've ever seen?
i can't remember.

30. who do you talk on d phone with often?
phone? my aunt (para kulitin cya) and grace (para mang-asar). hehehe.

31. do you belong to a team in your school?
team? sports to? wala e.

32. how's school?
hay....stressing! i'm on the verge of burning out.

33. any regrets?
regrets about anything? wala naman.

34. do you smoke? drink?
nope.

35. are you a clubber?
d rin e.

36. do you have someone in mind that you want to marry?
nope. and i'm not thinking of marrying for the meantime.

37. do you like swimming?
yeah!

38. do you wear contact lenses?
yep. :) but right now, i'm not wearing them.

40. do you kiss your parents good night?
nope.

41. does your crush often send you messages in friendster?
wala cyang friendster e. i wonder why? but then, i didn't ask him.

42. how about in e-mail?
hindi e.

43. how often do you use the internet?
i check my mail daily.

44. how is your hair styled right now?
layered. the shortest is just below my chin. the longest naman exactly below my armpit.

45. how is your feeling right now?
feeling? i'm tired, but i can manage.

46. how is the weather?
it was drizzling kanina, but right now, the sky's clear.

47. how will you treat your loved one?
...

48. how did you learn about friendster?
if someone doesn't know about friendster, that's a miracle.

49. how old are you this year?
oh my....i can't say it out loud.

50.do you miss some one???
yeah. sobrang miss ko na si grace! :)

the extreme differences of my creative poses

2004-09-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

less than an hour into a major exam and i'm here in front of the pc, citing differences on the two creative poses that i had.

the first pose (let me dub it as "rollers") is soooo me. it's because the pic's so makulit, and i AM makulit. it also says a lot about me:
1. PINK is my fave color - oh yes, it really is.
2. I love to sleep - that's why i have a really cute pillow. :P hehe. although i may not get enough sleep due to the demands of school, i make sure that i have cute pillowS. take note, i have quite a lot. (more than 10, i think).
3. i sleep in oversized t-shirts coz they're really comfortable to wear, especially when sleeping.
4. i've always liked to have wavy hair, but i don't want it to be permanent, thus the use of rollers.

the second pose (my friends call it the "bold star" pose, thanks to jollo for naming the file as such). now, i think this is not at all descriptive of me. hehehe. well, for obvious reasons. it may be my shadow. or it may be what i want to be? now, that's a thought.
could someone please tell me what about the character says something about me? i would really appreciate it.

now, for the meantime, let me get back to reviewing for the upcoming exam (it's 5:15 now and the exam's scheduled for 6pm).

2004-09-03T13:42:00.000+08:00

it's sooooo me! what ya think? :p

2004-09-03T13:40:00.000+08:00

ready na po ako for mature roles.

my battle cry!

2004-09-02T09:20:00.000+08:00

x's in my life

2004-09-01T19:20:00.000+08:00

now, do i have ur attention? good. :p
Have you ever...
[ ] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot....
[x] kissed someone.
[x] rode in a taxi. - maraming beses na.
[ ] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] broken a bone
[x] got hit by a car. - well, almost. twice na
[x] snuck out of your parent's house. - kind of. well, not really, pero d kasi ako pinayagan and wala naman tao sa bahay... afterwards, when i got home, i told my mom about it and she simply laughed.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[ ] stole something from your job - bond paper!!!
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[x] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[x] been to europe. - when i was a kid.
[x] skipped school. - cut classes more likely. hehehe.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[x] lost a family member
[ ] played 'clue'
[x] had a sleepover party. - not really a party. just had a few friends over.
[x] went ice skating. - but i was not good at it...how i wish.
[ ]cheated on a bf/gf.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had ur tonsils out.
[ ] had a car.
[ ] drove.

Do you..
[ ] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[x] have a crush. - cyempre naman. hehe.
[x] feel loved.
[ ] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy - mababaw kasi ako.
[ ] hate yourself.
[x] think youre attractive. - hehe. i would like to think so.
[ ] have a dog.
[x] have your own room. - sa dorm.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[x] listen to rap. - sometimes
[ ] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[ ] listen to techno.
[x] paint your nails. - when i have the time.
[ ] have more than 1 best friend.
[ ] get good grades.
[ ] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[ ] wear boxers
[ ] wear black eyeliner.
[ ] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink. very much!
[ ] cyber.
[ ] claim.
[x] like to read. - it's my life!
[ ] like to write.
[x] have long hair. - i've shaggy hair. there are long strands
[x] have short hair. - there are short ones as well. :)
[x] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager

Are you...
[ ] ugly.
[x] pretty. - people say so.. and i wish i were. :p
[ ] ok.
[ ] handsome.
[ ] bored.
[x] bilingual.
[ ] Hawaiian.
[ ] Samoan.
[x] Filipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] British.
[ ] white.
[ ] black.
[ ] mexican.
[x] asian.
[ ] short.
[x] tall. in my dreams. :p
[ ] grounded.
[ ] sick.
[ ] mad
[ ] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[ ] looking.
[x] not looking.
[ ] brokenhearted
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[ ] sleepy.
[ ] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[ ] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room. at the dorm
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] in your pjs.
[ ] ticklish.
[ ] listening to music.
[ ] watching the Olympics
[ ] watching tv

what makes me?

2004-09-01T16:53:00.000+08:00

How to make a pia richelle lee leong

Ingredients:
5 parts intelligence
3 parts brilliance
5 parts joy

Method:
Blend at a low speed for 30 seconds. Serve with a slice of fitness and a pinch of salt. Yum!

sleeping habits

2004-08-31T10:04:00.000+08:00

5 places you've slept at?
1. my room at the dorm
2. my room sa house
3. my lola's place
4. my tita's place in cagayan valley
5. my cousin's place in Manila (near our house)

Do you dream often?- i think so. but then, when i wake up, i forget what my dream was all about, oftentimes even the fact that i dreamt.

Do you drool when you sleep? - nope.

Do you talk in your sleep?- nope. i think i used to when i was younger.

Do you snore?- when i'm soooo tired.

Do you sleep on your left side / right side?- neither. can't sleep on either side. i sleep with my back and can't sleep on any other position.

Are you one of the people who sleep with their eyes half open?-nope. but my cousin does.

Do you enjoy sleeping?- sometimes, especially when there are a lot of things lined up to do and sleep is a luxury.

Do you get enough sleep?- i would to think so.

When you just can't get to sleep what do you do?- text people in the hopes that at least one of them is still up. then wait for their reply. if no one replies, i force myself to sleep: shut my eyes, cover my face, and wait til sleep takes its toll on me.

Sleep with lights On or Off?- off, preferably. it takes me awhile to sleep with the lights on, and probably not at all if the light is directly on my face.

Which side of the bed do you wake?- center.

Pillows?- i have 10 in all. i'm not so sure kung mas marami pa. i have 4 sa dorm and the rest sa house.

Hard bed? Soft Bed?- soft bed. i can deal with a hard bed, but the thing is, upon waking up, i get a back ache.

What do you normally do before you sleep?- wait for someone's reply to my text message.

What can you not sleep without? - pillows.

What is the bad thing about you when you are sleeping?- i'm not so sure kung malikot pa rin ako matulog e. If so, then this may be the answer.

what's the meaning of my name?

2004-08-31T09:34:00.000+08:00

The original message:
Message: YOUR TURN!!!
Spell your name and copy what each letter signifies about your personality. Then, send this to a whole bunch of people you know *INCLUDING* the person who sent it to you, so others could get a clear picture of what a beautiful person you really are!:)

A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind.
B - You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it.
D - You have trouble trusting people.
E - You are a very exciting person.
F - Everyone loves you.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people.
H - You are not judgemental.
I - You are always smiling & making otherssmile.
J - Jealousy.
K - You like to try new things.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
M - Success comes easily to you.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break
O - You are very open-minded.
P - You are very friendly and understanding.
Q - You are a hypocrite.
R - You are a social butterfly.
S - You are very broad-minded.
T - You have an attitude, a big one.
U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards.
V - You have a very good physical and looks.
W - You like your privacy.
X - You never let people tell you what to do.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble.
Z - You're always fighting with someone...

My name spelled out - and a few comments on each point:
P - You are very friendly and understanding. - aye to this.
I - You are always smiling & making others smile. - i would like to think so. :)
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. - definitely!

R - You are a social butterfly. - the heck?!? am i?
I - You are always smiling & making others smile.
C - You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it. - i guess so...
H - You are not judgemental. - i try my best not to be.
E - You are a very exciting person. - really? in what ways? does my kakulitan & loudness contribute to this?
L - Love is something you deeply believe in. - Love in general, I think. I sure hope that's what this pertains to.
L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
E - You are a very exciting person.

U - You feel like you have to equal up to people's standards. - or simply put, I expect myself to be.
Y - You cause a lot of trouble. - really? I didn't know that...

L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
E - You are a very exciting person.
E - You are a very exciting person.

L - Love is something you deeply believe in.
E - You are a very exciting person.
O - You are very open-minded. - well, yeah. That's part of being understanding.
N - You like to work, but you always want a break - yes! Because when one works, and a break soon follows, it doesn't end up unappreciated.
G - You have excellent ways of viewing people. - hmm...what a nice way to put it. :)

Just a few thoughts on this activity...
Is my name really significant of who I am or is it just suggestive of what my personality is? I would like to think that it only gives an excerpt of who I am. I don't wanna be boxed.

Saturday, here I come!

2004-08-30T15:39:00.000+08:00

This is really one hell of a week and it's just started. Imagine, 3 group projects to be passed! Whew. I can just imagine how it would turn out. Good thing monday's already done and over with (well, the day hasn't ended yet, but the school activities for the day already are). Now, i have a few more days left ahead of me.

Tomorrow, there would be a project pass for strategic management (second pass na!), on wednesday for production and operations management (second na rin and hopefully pre-final draft na), and on friday theology report. Of the three, i'm done with the first two mentioned (well, with my part at least). The last one (on theology), I still haven't anything done yet (haven't anything started in the first place even). Oh well, let's just wait and see what happens to the forthcoming days. I'm sure it's gonna be pretty much exciting.

When Saturday comes (no wait, Friday pala), I'll be happy and contented. I haven't gone home for three weeks now, and it's all because of the things that's been happening. Let me enumerate them:

August 14 (saturday) - there was a bowling tournament that we organized. It was soooo fun! :p Of course, I had to be there to oversee what's happening. I took the next day off by sleeping until 2pm! (It was certainly refreshing!)

August 20 - 22 (friday to sunday) - we had our immersion in Zambales (we were with the Aetas!). It was a very memorable experience for me, and a nice one at that. It really had my eyes opened to the reality of the world. Life there was so different. In civilization, one thinks about what still needs to be done, because there simply is so much to do. Back there, one thinks about what to do for later (that's how laid back life is back there).

August 28 (saturday) - my pictorial day! Actually, I was thinking of going home, but when 5pm passed and I was still in school, I thought against going home. I was so tired already I didn't feel like going home. Later on, I found out just how much stuff I had to have done for today. It was then that I thanked God for letting me stay behind in school for so long. (It was really a blessing in disguise, coz if I went home, I wouldn't have been able to finish the things that needs to be done for the deadline).

And now, I'm here, in front of my pc, typing away my thoughts on how life is, how my life for the week would pass by, and how I wish it were Saturday already, so I may now go home and relax for the meantime.

But then, reality bites and I'm still here, it's Monday still, meaning there are still a few more days left to go before Saturday comes along. I just have to live with the days left and then I'll savor Saturday when it comes along.

euphoric

2004-08-29T08:51:00.000+08:00

alas! my pictorial's done and over with. :) i absolutely looove my creative pic. it was oh so nice, not at all descriptive of me. or is it my shadow? hmm....it might be. will post the pictures once i have the contact prints with me.

my creative poses

2004-08-29T03:24:00.000+08:00

i have a few creative poses listed to try out (the pictorial's less than an hour away, i should have prepared for it by now). anyway, i've around 4 poses. :) hehehe. thanks to rosellen. (u sure made it a lot easier for me to come up with a creative pose. i'll just pose the pictures (all of the contact prints once they're done). i do hope the pictorial will turn out better than i expect it to be. and i do hope i'll do justice to the poses that i've come up with.

thinking of my creative pose for tomorrow

2004-08-28T01:43:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking of what to do for the pictorials since yesterday... ok, so i wasn't really thinking about it the way i should be, as i still don't have one to do. but then, it doesn't help to not be creative at all, yet what i need to come up with is a creative pose. now, how am i supposed to do that?
darn. i wanna take on miggy's suggestion of becoming a flower (no meaning to it, it's just cute). i was so perked up for this that i was already thinking of how i would pose and everything, when suddenly, miggy informed me that her friend doesn't have the prop already. how unfortunate of me.
again, it doesn't help much that i don't have the time to come up with the prop necessary for that, as the pictorial's scheduled at 1pm tomorrow, and i still have to look for the materials that i would be using for that. it might take me too long and i might not do justice to the prop. oh well...
why does it have to be that way? i don't want my creative pose to be some sort of a model type. it defeats the purpose of its being creative.
or maybe "creative" is defined by the way the person projects the pose....hmm...what a thought. well, i don't think i have any choice at all. if i bring pink stuff there, how am i supposed to let the people know that the color of the stuff is pink, when the yearbook will be in duotone, and not full color? damn it.
why does it have to be that i don't have creative juices flowing in my bloodstream? why are other people so creative they can easily come up with a pretty good idea for such? darn.